So I am stressing; my heart is jumping body jerking/twitching and I am thinking of life which seems scary and right now I am scared to have the responsibility of living. I want to hide. I want to see no one for a long time. I only want to be alone so I will try for that. I just wanted to write this out before I try to go to sleep and hopefully I can find peace somehow. Maybe I can get a more positive perspective soon. Maybe I am in less trouble than it seems.