So sad

[suephillips1956]

I’m new on here and find it so so sad reading peoples posts. I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression for 40 years. Day in day out panicking that I’m going to die or lose control. It’s exhausting frightening and I wish it would go away but it never has. I live with it and have had lots of therapy over the years plus lots of medication. The worry I feel about my family is overwhelming and I get anxious when they call thinking something bad has happening. My respite is my grandchildren who give me the most joy yes I worry but at least I smile all the time I’m with them

[Hidden]

Hello suephillips1956 & Welcome

It is very sad reading about so many suffering with anxiety but as much as we wish this was not the case it can also be a comfort to know we are not alone

I always remember that feeling many years ago thinking I must be the only person in the world feeling as I do and feeling so alone , now times have moved on and there are these Communities on line with people just like me it has helped in the respect of not having to feel I am the only one anymore and having people that relate to me can be such a relief , I hope as you start talking and getting to know us it might help in giving you some relief to knowing you are not alone

I know you have tried many things to hep with your anxiety but never feel it is not worth trying again because I sometimes think maybe it did not work then but it could do now

I relate to always worrying something bad is going to happen , anxiety feeds of these thoughts and controls us by doing so , it is about reversing the way we think and react easier said and done I know but small steps and we can especially with support of others understanding us and how hard this is

I am glad through all this you can still find something to smile about your Grandchildren , that is a positive

I hope others will come and say hello when they log on and if you need to chat you know where we are

Take Care x

[Hidden]

Hi Suephillips1956,

I am Delta1. I have also struggled with anxiety and depression for about 40 years. I have my very first psychiatric appointment on tomorrow! The thought of it gives me anxiety, but I have been struggling with depression, hypomania, and anxiety for far too long.

I'm glad your grandchildren bring you joy.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Good Luck with your appointment tomorrow Hidden

Keep an open mind , tell yourself no matter what it can't be worse than what you have been going through

Let us know how you get on x

[suephillips1956 in reply to Hidden]

All the best for tomorrow hope it goes well. I’m having therapy too. I find it does help. I find I get anxious when I do something that takes me out of my comfort zone. Stay strong

[Bird-67]

Welcome suephillips1956,

As Lulu said you have come to the right forum as there are some really lovely people on here to download to and help you not feel so alone.

I have suffered with anxiety for 60 years now but it changes over time and I just have to make the most of the good days.

Keep posting xx

[Hidden]

Good morning, I can relate to what you say about thinking something bad has happened or will happen. It's something I have been reflecting on a lot lately because a close family member had a really terrible time last year and it was something I didn't really see coming (and I blame myself for that, which doesn't help). It's a natural part of life that bad things do happen to all of us, without exception, at some point (although that's usually balanced by the good things) . The things we worry about aren't normally the things that go wrong - it's usually the unexpected. After 60 years, I've realised that I have little or control over what happens but I can with a lot of effort and practice have some control over my reaction to events. I still worry, of course, but realising this simple truth does help me to rationalise things and get things more into perspective. As I said though it's still work in progress - in another 20 years I might have perfected it !!! Not sure this helps you (?) but maybe talking this through with others who suffer in the same way will reassure you that you are not alone and there is some light ahead. Take care,