Hi Everyone, I'm new.

[Kari83]

Hi all,

Still struggling with anxiety. I've been on over 10 different antidepressant pills in the last 4 years. Recently diagnosed as Bipolar 2. I've been on mood stabilizers for the last month and I love them so far.

I was having upwards of 15 panic attacks in the night, I suffer from insomnia occasionally and I am 78 days smoke free (yay!). I am 34, with a 13 year old ASD son and a 11 year old Severely ADHD daughter. My Mom passed away Nov 9, my dad 8 years ago.

I am telling you these things because I know they contribute to my stress and panic attacks. I feel so badly for my poor husband, he's wonderful and the ups and downs I have went through lately really affects him.

I've threatened suicide lately (before the mood stabilizers) and he worries constantly about me. I can't snap myself out of these issues. The mood stabilizers have helped a ton but I don't want to be on them forever..... I know I need a therapist but it's like a needle in a haystack for a great one.

Mental illness sucks.

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Hello & Welcome

I know I have already replied in the Welcome post but glad you have come onto the Community and posted to and I really hope even though we are a small Community the few on here will make you welcomed

Take Care x

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Hi there and a BIG welcome to our community. Well done you for quitting smoking 😊You sound as if you have had a lot to deal with what with your Mam passing away recently and your children's health issues as well.If the mood stabilizers work for you and make things easier for you that's a step in the right direction. I mainly suffer with Anxiety /panic attacks and worry. I cant take antidepressants they just make things worse for me. But have Propranolol to take if things get too much ~but very rarely take them. You take it easy and hope for better days to come in 2018.Wishing you well 😊