BAD night.

[mz_rachel]

Went to the movies and it was horrible. I laid out on the seats and I was on edge. I had an early on episode while trying to find a dog park for my girls, but it was closed due to a wine festival. Anyway, went to another one that was 20mins away and I had a fun time with the girls. It was slightly hot and I was under the sun playing fetch with one of my dogs. I felt uncomfortable at that moment and of course my mind ran away from me. The drive back home was horrible. Took my medicine and I fell asleep while watching my show. Anyway, watched the finals game (go warriors!), and I guess you can say I was overly excited and anxious. After that we headed out to the movies which is literally 5mins away. I felt anxious already bc it's usually bad in the evening. And I was fine till half of the movie. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I felt VERY uncomfortable. I was scratching my chest (my go to), and I just laid out till the movie was done. I kept thinking this is the worst. I'm gonna die. I did some self help talks and it was like a see-saw. Didn't really work. So I pulled up things I could read about anxiety. What helped is what I wrote on my ig about my anxiety. Reflected on that and it helped and most likely bc my med kicked in. Got home and I don't wanna say my "safe" zone but I'm still learning that anywhere I go IS my safe zone. It just depends on how I deal with it. I'm glad it's over and my body is tired now. I hate it and I wanted to cry but I couldn't. I've gone far and I'm a fighter. Though every single time it hits me, it's as scary as the first. I will NOT give up. God has my back and those people around me.

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Hello

We are very slow on here but we need members to post and reply like you have and hopefully we can slowly change things round

Wow you did have a day of it but among all that I wonder reading your post if you realized just how well you did !

Despite anxiety trying as hard as it could to throw you , you kept trying and doing the things you know to help you get through and even though yes it drains you and yes it feels awful you did it so well done even though you may not feel you did well you really did !

You will have used so much adrenaline up that this is the reason you feel so drained after your day so be kind to yourself , give yourself so praise for all you achieved and I hope after you have rested up you will see as bad as it felt you still carried on and let the anxiety know you were not giving in to it's control over you

Have a lovely day today

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