This is an odd feeling that makes me worry a lot. l had problems with my mum during my wedding ( which. I posted on here about) and now we are not talking and haven't done for most of the year, I can't call her or email her, none of that works, she just rejects me every time and is very nasty. I think she hAs mental health problems.
My dad has now emergrated to New Zealand not long after the wedding and I knew this for at least a year he Was going but now that it's happened, I kind of feel lost I'm hoping this feeling is temporary. I now have this feeling like I don't have any parents anymore, and it's not that's nice, it's a bit like they've both just disappeared and left their children in limbo even though we Are adults 29, 26 and 23 years old but still...
now i suddenly feel like the parent; I've had my little sister on the phone in tears, she's at uni and not coping well and yesterday she was very to giving up and dropping out but has been told if she does, by our mum, not to come home!! Charming, Shes stressed enough working part time at weekend where she earns nothing and studying all the time and rarely goes out drinking (she's wants to be a vet :)) and hardly has any money!! It doesn't help that she also has disrespectful noisy house mates and one them sounds like a bit of a bully, but that's another story! so after 2.5 hours of counselling her and trying to get her incidence back again, I've managed to convince my sister not to drop out, its her dream job and I'm helping her look for another house share. Ive had to give her a fair amount of money ( I honestly don't mind,I just think my parents should be responsible for this) to help her out - My lovely mother also won't give her any and told her to get some money from our dad but he's unconntactable!! My sister very much feels the way I do, our brother is dealing with it a lot better but he is sensitive so I'm waiting for his call to talk about this!!!
Yes I do have my siblings a Hubby and some of my mums family and husbands family but they are not always in Contact and have their own lives and non live near by and they are not my parents!
My dad did send me a text before he left to get on the flight but I couldn't help but feel annoyed, he could of called instead a day or so before leaving for the airport.
I feel like this is slowly dragging me down and I don't want to become unhappy and anxious because that does then effect my job! I just feel that if I ever had a real problem I dont have a parent to call. i do almost feel abandoned by them and they are wrapped up in their own worlds and doing what they want to do, mainly by my mum. I don't know if this sounds dramatic or childish
But that's how it's is and how it feels.
Thanks for reading Lils