Hi I suffer from anxiety, a few years ago I had depression and anxiety attacks which led me to stop going places. I dealt with the depression through counselling, but still struggled with the panic attacks and anxiety. I started pushing myself (gently) into getting out and to places which I avoided and overtime I felt better at going, as long as the places weren't too crowded. I fell pregnant which seemed to set me back, bringing back memories from previous pregnancies and relationship, started counselling and was told I possibly had a former of ptsd and cbt was suggested but at that time was too far in the pregnancy and suggested I go back after baby. I had baby and think the anxiety has rubbed of on him. I never found the time to continue with the counselling, and a couple of months ago found I was getting some control, I recognised that baby needed to be socialising, which may help with his clingyness and that forced me into action. Putting his needs before mine, despite being totally uncomfortable. It's not often I get full on panic attacks now, but anxiety still has a hold, recently it's resurfaced and prevents me from going out. If I do something spontaneous anxiety shows up and I feel like I'm not supposed to be doing this, I'll get into trouble. It's a vicious circle. I keep telling myself I'm an adult, if I want to go to the park or into town when I haven't planned it, it's okay. It's a fear of the unknown or what people will think, I don't quite understand why I fear these so much, I know it's all in my head. When I tell friends I can't go out places I feel like a fraud or I'm just being lazy, but it's more like I have something physically stopping me from going.