Hi. I'm Alex & I'm 15 years of age. I'll cut to the chase - I personally think I've been depressed for a good few months now. School is nearly all to blame. Basically, In year 9, I revised for a science exam for four weeks, and got very poor results when I got them back.(9/30,8/30&9/30 again) I got bad feelings and they carried on for months. I hate myself for various things, I have stolen large amounts of money off my family, I constantly call myself a failure and a failure to my family, I say to myself that I don't deserve to live or to be apart of a family. I have cut myself a few times but nothing big or too major. Some have scarred though. I don't enjoy living and I don't laugh or find myself ever happy. For an example, I was listening to a music set and one of my favourite tracks came on. So I tried to be as happy as I could, by thinking good things, and it only lasted 5 seconds.(Litterally) I have tried suicide 3 or 4 times but as you can tell, it has not worked. I don't enjoy things that I used to(Sport, certain family outings etc) I tend to have gotten more angry at things as I have grown up. My school grades are extremely poor and I'm only two days off finishing year 10, it's very stressful stuff thinking about going into year 11 and all the exams. (I got a G in my Maths mocks)
So guys, I'm up for anything really; what do you think of me?