Hey help

[futurerocky]

Look I know I'm a guy and this is a dominant female group but I feel this is appropriate. I'm 20.5 and can't ejaculate at all I'm also a virgin somehow and got tests done and am not sure about the problem. It's not low sperm count or something wrong with the body I am healthy. We tested for low testosterone and am waiting back for results but it's doubtful. I don't know what to do it could be neurological something with the brain but we'll cross that bridge when we get there. It's probably psychological and could be but for over 8 years I have never came or had an orgasm it's disturbing.

I love kids and sadly my ex is pregnant from a rape and I thought I would be able to be there to act as the father which is sweet but she's not sure she wants it to have a dad. I don't get it she said she wishes she could tell people it's mine but it's the rape or at least people that don't know say it's mine then she goes back on it frustratingly and doesn't want to. Despite saying her ex that raped her looks like me and the baby might look like me and it could pass as mine then denying it saying it won't have a dad it hurts. I just want to be there and act as the father we've been through so much together almost a decade and I want to at least be an influence and called daddy to give experience sigh. I'm jealous and upset also because I'm alone have been for years officially excluding crazy girls online.

I love kids so much and can't wait to get married and have 10-12 of my own just beautiful daughters spitting image of their mother and great sons to follow in my footsteps in sports and do what I couldn't. Baby fever is the worst I want a beautiful baby girl so bad now I don't want to wait and to get this stupid fertility issue sorted out. Even if I get a sperm count they can't do anything if I can't cum. I'm not sure if fertility medicine would work but it might my ex gave me a link for male fertility medicine and herbs that might work. I just pray to god to get this sorted out soon and to be less horny and get my dream girl my Adrian soon. I just feel so alone. Any advice or experienced this before? I can still knock up a woman without cumming right? It's just improbable but not impossible? It feels like an endless road not knowing if I'm dead or alive.