Actually I can’t be aware of whether you had read my previous post or I need to refresh your memory about my misfortune. It’s all over…
I’m fatty. I’ll try being honest in the face of reality.
When I was here last time… I felt well, indeed it was amazing time I experienced.
But… But I was captured by the concerns. I worried I’d be all alone in soon.
And my nightmare became true.
My man, my lover left me in aggressive rude awful manner. And now he tries to seem happy with his <dead love> how he said. His past love adopted him as an abandoned puppy in rainy weather.
He said that life next to me brings only disappointing moments and the only memorable thing left after our love is that he’ll never forget that I’m fat and unable to have a child and i'm only focusing on different problems.
He was right. I could not respond.
However I ain’t gonna fall into deep sadness. It’s my life or better to say my existence. I want to develop my personality. I intend to become a mom sooner or later.
Thank you my readers and my supportive friends
My warm regards
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In fact it’s not me on photo. I didn’t dare to make my own shot for this drama.
p.s. I’m looking at this woman and she really looks better than author of this post. I hope she feels fine. And I’m sorry I had used her photo for my goals. But what are my goals…
i feel for you, you should know you’re not alone here, lots of nice ladies will support you.
you deserve to be happy, you deserve to live a normal life and be a mom. and your husband will regret about his decision when he'll see you changing.
well, may I ask some question? you want to develop your personality, will you start with the weight? did you consult any doc? what kind of suggesting he gave you?
Oh, thank you. It’s a truth we may talk here and be open and free for sharing but our actual life and our particular part of being wants to go outside. It’s passing by us. I’m afraid to dissolve myself on the numerous forums. But I’m grateful. I appreciate your presence. You all are the best persons.
He’s not my husband. I’d not like to think wrong about his decision. no rights to judge him. It’s a normal way. People meet each other. People leave. He’s young handsome and deserves to have more active lifestyle than I could offer. forget it. This was an empty contribution. we weren’t made for loving each other. But how it hurts me. uuuppphhhh excuse me. give me one second I’ll answer on your specific question
I have too many medical records and of course I don’t remember all my appointments and prescriptions. Faces of all my physicians spin in my poor memory like a huge snowball. I’ve not ever been healthy. I mean I was ill and felt not good ever since I recognize myself .
But you see I’m still alive!! Hah or take a look at the topic's title.
My weight doesn’t depend on my daily feeding. I don’t eat a lot. The cause is my hormones and ill endocrine and lymphocyte system.
Do you think I should start my changes from the weight? There are many big people around the globe who are really happy. I guess my attitude to everything has to be repaired first of all.
Dear, I didn't want to offend you I just wanted to say if you lose some weight you could get pregnant? is that what you want? do you want a baby, answer this little question please?
you are right, all people deserve to be happy, but first of all, you have to define what is the most important for you!
don’t hasten answering this question. It’s a big danger to be pregnant in my case due to all these diseases. I very often feel bad because of hypertonic falls and sometimes i have a heart ache it was so even since my childhood. What can I say? Perhaps if I grow thin the majority of my health problems will disappear but who may give a guarantee. I agree to take part in surrogacy I thought a lot about this method and I accepted. it will take a while but i'm ready to wait while i'll be recovering.
Ukrainian destination looks very attractive considering my budget and last events. but unfortunately as far i'm informed ukraine cares only for married couples.
I see, first of all you have to undergo a set of medical tests in order to confirm our health condition. To my mind, a doc will tell if you have a chance to carry a baby by yourself. In addition, you have to resolve a weight issues as it plays an important role.
actually you can't be a part of a surrogacy program, according to ukrainian legislation you have to be married and have all prescriptions for the surrogacy.
but still you have options, you can adopt a child, as far as I know you are not obliged to be married, you just need to prove you have enough sources to take care after this baby.
Of course, I’ll begin doing all these from Monday. I evolve a new program of morning exercises and health diet. I know it could be better to start doing all ten years ago.
I’m setting an aim to change everything around my life.
And I gonna stop weeping on my problems.
You probably noticed that our lives go round in circle. We frequently live through the episodes from our forgotten past. So I’m afraid to get back and find myself in the same empty place where I were before I started.
The surrogacy is a controversial and foggy question to me. I didn’t think a lot about this method in general, and Ukraine is a secret for me at all. Yeah, I heard something of it but I’m too far from real info.
And if an actual desire of ordering surrogacy surfaces I’ll be applying to the countries which can provide it despite my marital status.
Hello! I'm glad you satisfied with that clinic? How you got to know about them? How was your initial? What kind of treatment you undergoing? Is it an egg donation or surrogacy? Have you already had an embryo transfer?
Firstly I don’t find my case is difficult in that comparison it’s just a different one.
I believe the strong women dealt with and solved more serious problems. I know that one day everything will change. I’ll breathe freely and now I’m ready for trying hard to change something with my reality.
No, there’s no one who could be so kind to give a birth to my baby.
Just hoping? I don't want to offend you but you will have nothing if you just sit and hope. Believe me, each woman is a warrior, one faces lots of challenges every day, we have to be strong to deal with it. We have to fight with our brokenness.
I should find something that inspires me and forces me to make a breakthrough. In order to overcome this hard period I have to be inspired. But for now I don’t feel an impulse when I’m reading someone’s stories. I lost that feeling. I lost a lot
And I’m so sorry for that and I do not know how to return
Great thank to you dear. You wrote it so easy for understanding and I agree with you. such things can make our lives more cheerful but my changes must start definitely from myself. How many relationships will be broken up until I change myself? That’s why I want to absorb your wisdom and energy to improve my life's vision. i guess my health would be in better state if i possessed kinder thoughts
Good afternoon. Do you know, if only I was advised to wait for good times when I was 20 years old and everything was similarly bad probably I’d give up on further advices. It’s hard when you live like a fly in hot glue creeping and crawling. That craves to take a breath but there’s nothing but disappointment she takes.
I can’t display real changes I had during last 10 years. a lot of people can reverse their severe subsistence and it takes only a year or less. But I myself am still the same fly in hot blurred glue.
In which disposition do you mention your possible surrogacy? I guess a woman has to be highly ready for such experience. I have read your previous posts. How is your health’s state?
Hi, your stories are so different in emotional content. The first one had an inspiring base and a hope the second one has also a hope but with bitter flavor.
I badly hope on one day your everything will be OK.
I saw your message about surrogacy. My story is also concerned to surrogacy program and we passed through it in Ukraine
You may ask me if you’re interested. I believe all your affairs gonna be OK.
I know a very famous singer, which was very fat. Now you must see her, she is perfect. She is a Romanian singer. Her name is Feli. She has lost almost 40 kg in 6 months. And she participates at "The Voice". When she participated she was with weight. And ppl voted her. This means that ur overweight is not a reason not to be loved or appreciated. The problem was in your ex-bf. He doesn't deserve you.Maybe God saved you from suffering from this man. You are not alone. If you need help our just to talk, our community helps you definitely.
Best regards, and looking forward to hearing from you.
Hi! You are so kind to me. and your attention is so important. Yes, I always keep to a diet and am trying to control myself. Now I see we can’t buy our good health with help of money. The health is a special value we have to keep throughout all our life. And I wasn’t a strong and healthy one even when I was a child.
Unfortunately, I can’t say anything positive about my affairs. Nothing has changed since I was on this web-site last time. I didn’t visit the forum because I had no occasion and desire to speak at all.
thank you a lot Dear! thank you! Tell us about you. why are you here Dear?
You're absolutely right in what you mention about your health, I imagine as hard as it sounds to be. A friend of mine suffers from the thyroid and regularly has health issues because of her weight. But keep it up, do not be discouraged!
Furthermore don't languish in your ambitions to create your family! Everything will bear its recompenses
My dear, I've been for a while on this page haha. At first I came because I had been diagnosed with Endiometriosis and wanted a place to be able to consult and learn from other people with fertility problems what options I could take.
Later I was able to conceive naturally, but knowing the hardness of the battle I visit here usualy to listen and help people in the forums
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