What to do what to do!

Hello, I’m Lucia. Having big problems with my health I can’t give a birth and also get pregnant in natural way.

My poor body contains cardiac failure, asthma and time to time I suffer from hypertension, it comes suddenly and I’m afraid one day it will have finished with brain attack.

Last year I have visibly put on weight this is additional problem.

I’m 40 and my last monthlies were half year ago.

I’ve never been pregnant I have no children. It’s terrible to be alone. I’m not officially married but I have admirer and it seems he wants to become my husband.

I don’t know a reasons. He’s handsome and younger than me.

So I want to change something.

16 Replies

  • Poor girl!!! I feel for you!!! Every day is a challenge for you, it's horrible! I even can't imagine how you are feeling right now!! You might be devastated and helpless, sorry about that.

    Don't give your pain be stronger than you!!! Fight with it, there is a lot of options you could apply for.

    p.s. if you want to change something just start with yourself! Only positive thinking and pure reason!!!

  • I ain’t more broken than others who TTC for too long. I guess so.

    Actually it’s terrible to live in such way. Sometimes the only thing I wanna do is that crying whole day, whole night, praying for god to change something! Why do all people have a chance? And I've got no!

    I feel like a freak, feel weird and odd waif!

    My decision was that to say anything I feel and wanna say. I'll be open to talk just don’t stop to ask me.

  • oh no no, sometimes the God gives a challenge just to see if you are enough strong to overcome this, he doesn't want to punish you he wants to reward you with a gift in a future!!! I know, it sounds ridiculous but you should to accept your condition right now and gives it a time. For sure, your day will come and all your problems will vanish into a smoke!!!

    you have a chance as well, you don't see it, you just go with thoughts that you are poor but it's wrong. You must be happy the God gave you a live!!!

    p.s. have you ever received psychological counseling? Maybe it will be better in your case?

  • Yup, it helps to manage some issues. I had meetings with psychologist during 2 years. Thank to her, she helped me to avoid big problems in current time. only now I can comprehend how strong her contribution was.

    I’ve been recently given sack from the work I loved. I guess it was due to my appearance. But at the same time I have a boyfriend who never said that I’m not pretty or not enough good to be near him.

    I suppose we need to set specific goals and try to solve all our (my) problems.

  • All your worries are just inside your head. try to understand your man wants to be with you, he wants to spend his life with you and I'm pretty sure he will do his best in order to make you happy, don't you think so?

    He loves you without doubts, believe me, no one wants to be with a woman who can’t bear a baby.. I can tell it from my personal experience.

    how long have you been together? Have seen his bad attitude to you?

    Goals? What do you mean speaking about it?

  • We are together about one year and half. It was active and dynamic period of relations. We met in one month after he had left his previous love affair. He felt really bad he looked like abandoned puppy.

    But I saw how he was blossoming next to me.

    Honestly I felt the same rebirth near him. It’s my story about the last year full of true happiness and grace I had never experiences this before.

    But how can’t I be worried?

  • I'm sure he loves you, that's why he wants to marry you!

    You're not alone! That's great you wrote here, now we can support you and help to cope with your feelings! Sometimes we need to bear a lot of intercurrences to become happy!

    The most important is to understand your goal and find what exactly need to be done to achieve your goal!

    Did you consult your doctor about the options he could recommend you?

  • Actually he’s my light, my passion, my power, my desire, my helping hand. Now he’s the one who beautifies my dark chamber and existence.

    Probably I’d feel like creeping insect from Kafka’s novel if he was not beside me.

    I’ll not dare and risk to go through the pregnancy to necessary term, I guess my baby will not be able to survive.

    Surrogacy seems a reasonable option considering all my problems.

  • Ohhh, I just can’t relax after I knew how many problems you’re overcoming.

    You'll be a hero when you become a winner of all these troubles.

    I think you have to walk my way. gestational surrogacy is one of the ways. Actually if your doctor gives you his approval or recommendations you’ll know better what to do next.

    I guess most of all you want to become a mom… now you just may imagine this wonderful experience.

    But be sure your case will change in soon. And your opportunity to have a baby will be closer that ever.

    XX X

  • Thank you all! Thank you! It’s nice from you to give me such support.

    You’re right I want to be a mom at last. I’ve lost too much important time now it’s harder that it could be 10 years ago.

    And yes we think a lot about surrogacy or adoption.

    Have you ever lost the feeling of reality being afraid to lose your boyfriend ‘cause you can’t give him a babe?

  • I decided to convey this question into general discussion. I guess it’s serious thing. And also it’s a pretty common situation.

    Please show and share your thoughts regarding that.

    “Have you ever lost the feeling of reality being afraid to lose your boyfriend ‘cause you can’t give him a babe? “

  • Sorry… are you really on this way just to retain your relations with man?

    Sounds not good. I think you’re afraid of things which aren't the crucial ones in your personal case.

    Certainly you don’t want to lose your love story but your intended baby isn’t a tool of relationship maintaining. So cruel and divesting plan if I understood you correctly.

    Try to think more

  • Ohhh, really no! I was afraid to hear such suspicions. Please don’t blame me in that.

    Even if I was absolutely alone and I’ve never know him I’d want to have my own baby anyway.

    Do you accuse yourself or anyone else who had desire to raise and love their own children but they couldn’t?

    But these are two the most concerning things in my life, my inability to have a baby and my chance to be with my man.

  • I believe we should be sincere here. Well, as for me, I always had such fears, and still have them. I feel myself guilty that he had to suffer because of me. But I had much time to think it over and now I realize that I won't get rid of these thoughts....I learned to coexist with them!

    There was a time when I was so afraid that, unconsciously, I did everything to lose him, but then he said that he loves me and will love no matter of what, then I realize that It's only me who cares about it even more then he does.

    So you should let these thoughts go away from your head.

    Tell him about what you feel and what you are afraid of. The best way out is to talk to your better half.

  • You should know I understand who I am. I think it’s not a secret how I feel and what I see looking in the mirror. I’m not young, I look not good and fashionable. Perhaps the fact I talk a lot about my health isn’t good way to solve problems.

    Speaking about my worries I speak about that thing I can’t get pregnant, I can’t give a birth, and so I’m seriously afraid to lose my wonderful current relationships with my man. Because he’s healthy, he feels alright and never complains.

  • It's all in your hands! people see us the way we see ourselves. You are only 40. You are young! He fall in love with you for some reasons! Don't make self-searching, don't delve into yourself. Just enjoy every moment and do your bets to have a child. Love him and everything will be alright.

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