It should be a special mood. You wake up in the morning and everything is going according to different plan.
Internal conflicts cease. The storm inside you is replaced by a feeling similar to the mix of humility and fear of the future. And then there is an important change occurs. You are ready.
I felt something like that. I do not know how to write posts beautiful or intriguing, got no skills for that. I've always wanted to have a big happy family. But when the time and thoughts about creating a family came to me, I have faced my problem. My verdict - I can not bear and give birth to a child.
Perhaps like all I felt horror and emptiness. I had to fill that emptiness with something good or it could kill me. There were conflicts in my family. My husband and I could not solve it in a moment. Till I felt the change and calm. Something was turned on and a voice inside me told me to act. In the morning I woke up as the other woman. I was ready for surrogacy. I endorsed all aspects of this procedure.
Another woman would be carrying my child. My child would mature from stranger's egg.
How has this happened to you? What did you feel at that moment? And what were the first of your actions after this point? Sorry if this message is folly. It can contain no benefits or knowledge. But I really want to know.