Having a really, really rough time of it lately.
I've just completed a three year degree, it was a real struggle for me as it was a very complicated subject and I was a good twenty years older than anyone else in the class. That said I managed to keep up and I came out with a good grade of a 2:1. then maybe two months after finishing it myself and friend who was also on the course realised that the skills we'd been taught were about 5 years out of date, so basically the degree is worthless.
Since last Christmas my memory has become completely unreliable, also my concentration. I've also noticed that I was getting tired all the time and occasionally I've started to get pins and needles in my lips. I'm also still having dizzy spells and periods of not being able to focus. The other major concern (for me anyway) is the horrible pains I've started getting up and down my back(I get them either side of my lower back, around my shoulder blades and higher up), they come on gradually and have litteraly either reduced me to tears or brought me to the point of vomiting (though thankfully I've never actually done so), they last until I can get myself in just the right position and then they litteraly just switch off.
I've been seen by a neurologist recently and since then I've had a blood test which revealed my B12 levels were very low (now on supplements), I've had a scan on the veins in my neck which came up clean and on Monday I'm going for an MRI (last one was 7 years ago). I'm due to see m y Rheumatologist again in a couple of weeks but after seeing them last time I've no faith in them anyway.
I'm not currently working, I'm not even sure if I got a job that I could hold it down due to al my current health problems and because I can't concentrate I can't study to fill the missing gaps in my degree. I was supposed to go for a disability assessment with ATOS however they gave me 2 days notice and expected me to travel to the far side of Lancashire, when I rang and explained that I couldnt afford to get there at such short notice they siad they would cancel the assessment and would pass it back to my doctor, I'd already had to wait two months for this one to come through.
Oh and to top things off I found out in October that my wifes been having an affair. I'm at my whits end and tbh if I didn't have my daughter I'd just have ended it all by now.
I'm sorry for going on but I know that this is one of the only places that will understand most of what I'm going through.