Today I woke up rather early, and honestly lately I feel very rested after only 5-6 hours of sleep, but I digress, what I wanted to say was that when I woke up this morning I looked into the mirror and noticed that my skin was glowing, my face, and arms and chest looked luminescent, I felt rested and I felt happy to know that my eating is making my skin much healthier than I have ever seen it. For years I ate a lot of junk food, and my skin always looked rather dull and dry and lifeless, and I had to put lotion all over my body every day, and lately I have noticed big changes. Anyways... I started to think about how the longer fasting periods that I do tend to worry people. I have mentioned my long 23 hour fasts to many of my friends and family, as well as online friends, and coworkers, and I see their worry and their concern and I think about it. And, this morning (because I was thinking about it continually since yesterday) I decided to break my fast early, not because I worry but because the thinking about them worrying got to me. It got me thinking about foods I haven't eaten in a while and I decided to break fast early to have some of those foods. They're healthy choices and I figured it couldn't hurt, might even calm me down a bit, because I tend to think a lot about things. One of my coworkers is constantly on my case that if I don't eat, all these bad things are going to happen, like malnutrition, etc. I walked by his cubicle this morning as he was eating a doughnut and coffee, and he of course offered me one. When I refused of course I heard a lecture. I shrugged. I walked past his cubicle again a bit ago and he was eating chips and drinking a soda and I wondered if he ever eats anything healthy. I never see him eat anything but candy, chips, soda and donuts, so I thought to ask him what he had for dinner last night. I didn't ask outright, but I mentioned how I ate a big salad and he told me that he ate out at a brewery and had two big hot dogs and some chips and a few beers. I came back to my desk and thought about his diet, if I include what I know from just the past 24 hours, I can see he ate:
Dinner, Breakfast, Lunch:
2 Hot dogs
Potato Chips
3 Beers
2 Doughnuts (he never eats just one)
1-2 cups of coffee with cream and sugar
A large bag of Doritos and a Pepsi or two or three or four. (He drinks them all day long)
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I fasted all day yesterday, but when I got home I had:
A large Italian salad with: Tomatoes, Lettuce, Cheese, Onions, Salami, Olives, Green and Red Bell Peppers, Garbanzo beans, and Pepperoncinis topped with Balsamic Vinaigrette.
Manicotti (stuffed with parmesian, mozzerella, and ricotta cheese, with a sauteed garlic marinara) which is wrapped in a large pasta noodle.
And today:
1/2 cup of Cashews
1/2 a tuna wrap, that included line-caught tuna, lettuce, tomatoes, bell peppers, onions
A bowl of sweet yellow, red and orange peppers with hummus.
Lots and Lots of water
Vitamins, Biotin supplement & two Omega 3 fish oil tablets
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My point is basically that I am not worried that I am not getting enough nutrition, because when I do eat, I am eating foods packed with nutrition, I'm not eating junk. And, for the most part, people I know are all are eating for the taste of food, and not for the nutrition in it.
Not everyone in the world, but a lot of people around me, and some of which are giving me a hard time about my fasting.
So yeah,.... I decided to eat 1/2 a tuna wrap (gave the other half to my boss) and snack on some cashews, and some colorful peppers and hummus, because tonight we are all going out to a comedy club, and I know that means beer, and nachos and all that stuff that I don't want to eat, so I will be sitting there with a glass of ice water and watching the show. I figured I should go ahead and break my fast and eat some delicious food that is nutritious now so that I am not too hungry later when the only options are going to be bad ones for me.
The tuna wrap had a tortilla on it, and the manicotti last night had pasta wrapped around it, and I will pay for it by feeling hot all day but it's okay. I am doing a lot better than ever, and I am walking around work holding my pants up, because well... they're 3 sizes too big.
As my coworker said to me today "You're shriveling away into nothing, pretty soon there will be nothing left.... " to which I said... Oh, there will be something left, you just might not recognize me. I'm good with that.
According to my BMI, I am still obese. ~ sighs