Well, I don't actually at the moment because today's a good day. Not every day is good.
In two day's time it'll be the 6 month anniversary of my Fall. I've capitalised it because it's a big, big day in my life and deserves the proper recognition.
I fell down the stairs in my house. Simple as. Whilst walking up the stairs with a takeaway on a plate. Luckily the plate survived the ordeal and the dogs enjoyed the food. I wasn't so fortunate. Physical stuff, back was temporarily stuffed but is now ok for shortish periods, but my head had a hole in it. I don't remember hitting my head, I do remember saying to my OH "I think I'd better go to bed now," and laying in bed, crying my eyes out. I know I crawled up the bottom stairs, I must have crawled up the second flight also to get into bed, but I don't remember doing so.
The physical pain and the blood on my pillow the following morning were proof positive that "something" had happened. But hey, I could walk - albeit slowly and painfully - and I could talk; that's gotta be good, right? OH tried his best to get me to agree to go to hospital but there was no way I was going to let that happen. Me + hospital = a mahoosive no, unless I'm at death's door. It hasn't happened yet. In truth, the thought of being admitted to hospital scares me more than being caught in a fire. Seriously. That's going some.
The physical i.e. bodily stuff healed - mostly - in two months or so. I doubt the inside of a gym will see me for more than ten minutes at a time but hey - that'll be ten minutes more than the rest of my life in any case.
The rest of it is mine forever.
I used to enjoy cooking and good food. Cooking is now an adventure because I have no clue whether I've added too few / too many herbs or spices; the OH dreads me making a chilli. I've already put on weight because, when you can't smell or taste, you may stop being selective with your eating habits and just eat to fuel your body. Long walks are a thing of the past too: sitting on my backside is far less painful and a day playing on-line games and watching TV works just fine.
Except it doesn't, not really.
I'm annoyed, angry, frustrated and thankful, all at once. My head is fully aware that I was lucky to escape with the injuries I did. My emotions sometimes tell me that it shouldn't be like this. *Sometimes* is the coolest word. For me, it means that when I'm feeling down, I won't feel like this forever.
Today is a good day, I've done some decorating in the house, sorted out some stuff to be binned. A minor thing for most people. Tomorrow may be different. I guess we have to live for today.