in reality,i have lost so many skills that were natural,in reality i am seemingly gratefull,for jack shit!in reality this is no longer my life...in reality,i am a half wit...trying to believe tha.t reason for all this..in reality i am a half wit,who does not like it.
in reality this is sh*t
Oh Razi, so sorry you are having a bad time, you are not a half wit at all, you have experienced a brain injury and you cannot help what has happened to you. You are a brave strong lady who has been through a life changing event. Thinking of you, you are in the best place on this site xx
aw thank you lubilu01,had one of those days where i malfunctioned all day long,from dropping my tea,to forgetting my pain killers,,and had a minor op on arm and have two more to go,one on my forehead (14 stitches,feel like Frankenstein)..and while they were performing surgery,i could not shut up,nor focus my mind on anything..then going home,had so many accidents,my processing or lack of it is not letting me handle things in a logical way..am calmer today,my sis and brother in law came over yesterday,with lovely food shopping,,and did some repairs on my flat..i was lucky in this instance to have someone give comfort...and now am alone again,finding comfort in your reply.thank you so much,sending u a cosmic hug 
Razi so sorry you are having a tough time. This brain injury stuff really sucks and sometimes it can just seem like reality sucks big time...
I am glad to hear you don't like it..., you are not supposed to like it....
You are definitely NOT a half wit..you are a person who has a brain injury and has to find ways to deal with all the stuff that comes with it...and this is stuff that would try the most sainted person at the best of times.
Be gentle with yourself and please know you are not alone in this...there are other survivors walking the same path, ready and willing to help support anyone who may stumble along the way.
in reality i do feel very alone when i am malfunctioning.
thanks to this site,i do realize there are others in the world,having the exact same problems and worse.
your words are very true iforget,thank you very much,hope you are well ,lol ;}
Maybe you're suffering a bit of 'visitor withdrawal' on top of everything else. And, yes, it can get very lonely at times & there isn't much we can do about that, except keep enriching ourselves with whatever stuff we are capable of, and taking an interest in new subjects......just for sanity's sake.
And, if all else fails, come on here and have a really good rant.....you know you're in good company. 
xx
thank you cat xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
So how's that supposed to make me feel?
how does it make you feel? i don't know you personally antony ms..,but if i have upset you by sharing my personal reflection on my illness,i would call headway helpline and talk to them..or to a friend or your doctor.take care
I could say 10x worse things about me and my life...i'm 13 years down the road still getting nowhere..If you're a half wit, i'm a no wit.
maybe we are both half and half?lol ;} i am nine months down the line,the first day i met my neurologist he said would get me to memory post stress clinic,i rand his secretary yesterday..referral still not been made despite being diagnosed after tests for slow processing,a few weeks ago,and his promise two weeks a go that he would chase it up.the funds are not there,that is why this site and the helpline are so important to me..the help line really understand,treatment funding etr..and the fact we find it hard to keep pushing..some days i get get mad and frustrated,as they offer you hope...then take it away by doing nothing,when i want to scream i ring the helpline,when i am coping,i write on here.anthonyms after 13 years and being aware of your condition,i think you have done well..i am tearing my hair out after nearly ten months..i see a slow recovery due to funding and resources available..
it is hard to be pos somedays,but today is a better day,and am glad of your reply,all the replies in fact..helps me think straight and reminds me of heart and good souls in the same place.
sending you a cosmic hug ;}x
I wish I could offer you a "long-winded-super philosophical-coming from a veteran brain injury survivor" style reply like many on here do, but i'm feeling retarded these days. Proof my problems don't just stem from the brain injury. All I can say is remember you had +30 years of life being the real you and not that zombie you've now become. And do yourself a favour and go private...the NHS is bloody awful.
Hi Razi! I like your post and the response it has inspired which proves to me you are more than a half wit. You speak from the heart which is something much of us survivors do now. We see the world for what it is, we are the ones that have had the chance to get off the merry-go-round and analyze ourselves and the lives and world we live in - A point raised in a recent therapy session I had. I have been watching some of Morgan Freemans wormhole documentaries online recently about the subconscious and time etc, which have taken me and my thoughts into a new realm of thinking, so if you are looking for inspiration in this gloomy world I would recommend his stuff to cheer you up and get you tuned in with something new, keep posting and stay healthy x
I like to think that life is more like "sh*tty roulette" than just sh*t. Everyone get's their quota, ours is just fairly more life-threatening. But that's just it, and life doesn't care what you think about it. Don't get me wrong, I think life can be amazing too, but everyone gets their portion.
But we all have a right to have days like these, those healthy b**tards don't (or those directly affected), so take solace in that 
Why is life backwards
Is there life after ??
Not living in the real world….really horrible!
Comfort or fear of reality?! 
