Ok - I don't know if any of you have been following my journey so ill give you a wee update anyway. I got sick when I was 20. That was just under 5 years ago now...
I got a bit better this last September and have been back working full time ish since last month and I'm doing okay. However I just got out the bath and took one look in the mirror. I'm now mortified.
I'm double the size I was, my skin has no shine or anything. It's red and puffy. I just hate myself. And I've never hated my body.
To get 'better' I've had to follow a strict no sugar, gluten free, and high vegetable diet and that meant I lost weight and my skin was going back to normal. But I hate vegetables. They make me gag so I have to hide them in foods from myself. And it's impossible to eat as well now I'm back working - I don't have time to make a full soup every day.
I need to do something about this. I'm gunna work on doing it all properly again cause the worse I eat; the worse I feel; the worse I look. Any of ya'll got any advice for me to push through on this? Cause I'm stuck.