Hi all, just needed to write this for my own sanity, I got my first counselling appt today to help with my depression, it will be the third time in 5 years. I hope the person is on my wave lenght or I wont be able to open up as it were. I then tomorrow I got my DLA appeal in liverpool, I hate these things, I got turned down last time but now I got a diagnosis and a doctors letter of support I am just hoping I can have this help I so need. I lost my Job of 12 years and was threw off ESA in Feb after a failed medical, I have had every step of my illness blighted by either medical people and DWP because they treat you as if your lying, I have never felt so ill, When I got Gastric Enteritis last year I had to go in hospital and I have learned that if you have IBS and get a vomiting bug you can come very ill. I didnt know this until recently. Fingers crossed I get a positive outcome tomorrow, I am so dreading it, I wouldnt mind, I woke up today and I cant even turn my stiff neck and the pain radiating down my spine is 9 out 10 the painkillers are starting to work but Im soooo tired and my head hurts I dont need this stress that the DWP keep putting upon us!!