miserable

[trisha64]

today i feel so horribly low ,, have been in tears for best part of the day ,, horrendous headache and chest pain ,,,,,,,right now i feel that low i wish i could just sleep forever ,,,,,

[Butterfly54]

Sorry to hear you feel so awful hun,but sometimes a good cry can do you the world of good so let it out hun and just imagine we are all holding your hand and wishing you better soon.

Trouble with that one is the more you cry the worse the headache and the more sore your chest is.But I had the biggest cry last night and I never do it normaly,but boy did I feel better.For a little while that is.

Thinking of you Butterfly xxxxx

[angmoz]

Sorry to hear you are in so much pain Trisha.

My thoughts are with you. x

[Hidden]

I know it is awful when you feellike that and you jus wan to be left alone , but if its how you feel today you cant help it, when i am feeling like that i jus warn my nearest and dearest that i am feeling really miserable today jus so they know its not them done anything. hopefully you will feel better tommorrow love to you diddle x

[MrsW]

Sometimes it helps to cry ,sometimes it helps to talk to someone in the same boat,we've all been there and will be there again I expect,but NEVER wish your life away,it's Spring,it's sunny and the daffodils are out and things do get better,so take care and try to smile you are not alone.

Soft hugs from Bristol.

[Hidden in reply to MrsW]

That is so true you are never alone on here and yes the sun is out here too woo wooo love to you diddle x

[nadine1974]

big but gentle hugs xx

[Hidden]

Another gentle hug Trisha, take care of you hun. x x

[trisha64]

thanks my lovley friends ,, to be honest chris i think its a reaction to the last 18 months ,, justine my daughter got sick ,, within 24 hrs of her being in the royal they said her colon was going to rupture ,, they used massive doses of steroids anti biotics etc ,, but one managed to save it for another 17 days ,, she had major surgery to remove it ,,,,

in the next 50 weeks she was admitted to the royal 47 times ,, three times we were told she wouldnt make it thru the night ,, luckily she did ...

she has bechets and crohns and fibro so she is in pain one way or another daily ....

the bechets can flare up in any organ as it is carried in the blood ,,, when it hits her brain she forgets who she is who i am ,, and i have to go thru all the photos and do it that way till she regains her memory ,,,,

she had surgery again in jan to remove the rectal stump she is still recovering ,,,,,,

in that space of time my partner left he couldnt take the stress ,,,, i wish it was that easy to walk out myself some days ...

three weeks ago my cash card was scammed .. then the child tax told me i owe them 900 coz they said i hadnt told them he had left ,, three times i sent the forms to them the last time he took them and handed them in to the security .......

friday we got burgled,, they took all jus and my meds a lot of them coedine or morphine based .... so now the local smackheads know where to rob for a fix ,, then today im told my rent has gone down so im 300 in arrears ...

i just feel as tho i really cant take anymore ... i sat today looking at the morphine and i really wanted to just take the lot ,,ive spoken to the crisis teamm my gp has been out to see me and upped my anti depressants

im trying really hard to stay on an even keel but this is the worst i have felt for a long lobg time ,,,,

im sorry for moaning but i just really cant deal with anymore right now xxxx

[jazher]

Aww trish, i just want to send you a big hug,

I hope you feel better soon hun, dont you say sorry for moaning, you have had a lot to moan about.

Hope life starts looking better real soon, you know where we all are.

kel xxxx

[rubywhiplash]

Hi Trish hope by now you might be feeling a bit better Sending you

((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))) To get better soon Ruby xx

[MissKittycat]

Trish, theres not much more I can add - but know you're in my thoughts - and if I can think of any way to help I will inbox you if you want me to xx

Tracy xx

ps just had a thought..... get in touch with victim support through the police - I did once and they were brilliant.. put me in touch with lots of people....

[Euni]

Victim support sounds a really good idea. You are not moaning, just sharing what is making you feel low, and you have taken an emotional battering, my goodness!. I wish I could be there to give you a gentle hug in person, but we will help you through. Much love. Euni xx