I am new to this site. Thought that I would take up the advice of my doctors to find some support groups, and to be honest, it is very hard sometimes because family and friends don't really know how I am actually feeling nor do they know about the pain. The look of dissapointment in their eyes when I cannot do this or that or I refuse to go somewhere be used I know I cannot walk for 5 minutes straight.
I am normally a bouncy bubbly all laughing and joking type, but after I was attacked by a patient at work about 5 years ago, I have been on a gradual decline, which resulted in me being off work sick for the last year. I have been treated well by my work but I am now coming into the time where they do no longer pay me so will soon have no income at all.
I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Osteoarthritis in my joints, TMJ Jaw problems, swelling ear canals which wipes out hearing every other month, severe carpal tunnel to both hands, difficulty sleeping, extreme pain to knees joints and lower to mid back (which is the main reason I do not do hardly anything or go anywhere now), static nerve pain, regular migraines, burning skin, zero levels of vitamin D and every now and then my hands and feet swell up too. I feel very very depressed lately and have some very dark thoughts sometimes and often find myself sobbing when no one can see me. I turn to food, who does not help me as I am very obese too. My husband is normally quite good, but even he gets fed up when he goes work and after a 12 hour shift, comes home to find me still in bed due to immense fatigue. Some wife I am Hey! I know I am sounding really sorry for myself and pathetic but I feel I am drowning with no future anymore. So many little things I took for granted before, I would give anything to be able to go for a nice walk.
I would love to ask others how you cope when things are so painful and all consuming..how do you escape..if I take all my medications it only scratches the surface of the pain but then I am too drowsy to do anything, or if I don't take then to be more alert, then I am in too much pain.
I hope there are some kind souls on here that can share their insight or knowledge...and I am just starting to read some of the nice posts on here too, so many in the same boat.
Hope to hear from you soon, sorry for ranting....bless your hearts xxxx