So the past few weeks I've missed my placement (I'm training to be a mental health nurse) due to pain and fatigue etc you all know the drill. Just when I thought I was good and able to get myself back in I wake up in terrible pain, I'm unable to move my hands and fingers properly, they have swollen up terribly and nothing seems to be helping to ease the pain. I FINALLY saw my rheumatologist who informed me it's not only fibro I have but also ehlers danlos. I have about 4 weeks of placement I need to make up so now I'm stressing out because I'm still not fit to go in. It's making it worse because when I speak to my mum all she tells me is to remain positive, but how am I supposed to be positive when everyday I wake up in horrible pain all over my body feeling like I haven't slept a wink, & constantly crying whilst feeling depressed and anxious. This post was really just a rant and I apologise for that but I just feel like I can't get across to my family and friends how debilitating this really is.