Just the worse day ever

Can't wait for today to be over.

5 years ago today I loss my dear mum she pass away in my arms. Also loss my dad 5 years ago 8 weeks before my mum. Both of them was my world. If that was not enough to deal with then my husband of 17 years started his rubbish so I had to go to court for that got him out of my life. Left with 4 children and very I'll health and it's just got worse and worse. What with the M.E fibromyalgia chronic back pain. now I feel like what the hell have I done for all this to happen to me. I see my kids so unhappy I am unhappy but we all just try but inside we are screaming HELP !! Today I just locked myself in my room and wish I did not wake up.

Sorry just had a bad day

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  • Don't say sorry for this is what this forum is for so we can all share our ups and downs in safety with people who are in similar situations and can understand how you are feeling.

    I think the anniversary of any death is very hard to take and when it is so close to one another doubly so. Both my parents died in the month of February as have unfortunately other family members and I have to be honest I am always glad to see the back of February each year.

    You have the added stress of multiple health problems as well as the dreaded fibro and 4 children to take care of so you are allowed to feel sometimes that it is all too much to cope with. Sometimes I think we have to just shut ourselves away for a while to recharge our batteries for the fight as we are not robots and can't keep on existing on auto pilot. During this difficult time be kind to yourself and don't ask too much of yourself either.

    Keep in touch with us and let us know how you are doing.x

  • Thank you rosewine xx

  • As rosewine has said do keep in touch here, I can tell you that there is no time limit to grief. No need to feel alone. xxx

  • I'm so very sorry of the loss of mom and dad.I can't even imagine.My dad is sick now (demintia) and mom takes care of him.Im just about crazy when I think about it as they live 2 hours away so can't see as much as I would like...then when I do its a mental break down that I try my very best to control for everyone's sake.Lets get back to you.I wish you and your children all the best life can offer.Please take care of yourself and try not to lock yourself away ..alone..ok?? I'm usually on the site off and on all day and I'm 5 hours diff. from you.Im here for you and will respond if you need me...Once I get a msg.This is up to you.Take c care and be blessed my friend!! Peck 🌹

  • Thank you so much for your lovely message. So sorry about your dad please try and take care of yourself too I know it's hard but you can only do your best. I try not to lock myself away too much but pain gets me and I don't like my kids seeing me in so much pain I have no other family. And no friends so life hard but my kids are my world now but we all been thought so much.

    Take care and thanks for the message xxlinda

  • HI sorry I've only just seen this post

    Thank you for replying to my post re my Dad passing a yr ago' my thoughts are with you and others going through bereavement

    You've a lot to cope with everything be kind to yourself, if anyone offers any help take it I always thought I had to do everything myself ... well we are not superwoman

    I hope things get a little easier for you and your family

  • Hi Mahoney0719

    I have read your post with so much pain and sorrow for what you have endured, and are still enduring. I did not know when I replied to you in ''twinks'' post the other day how awful things were for you? I always say to people that I wish I had a magic wand and I would take away the pain of the world.

    I want to genuinely and sincerely wish you all the best of luck and please take care of yourself my friend.

    All my hopes and dreams for you

    Ken x

  • Sending you soft gentle Hugs and positive vibes. X

  • Thank you all for your kind messages and positive vibes and hugs xx

  • Hello my friend

    I'm so sorry that I have only just seen your message. I don't know how I missed it.

    Rosewine has said pretty much everything I would have said to you. Please don't ever apologise. We understand and can be here to listen to you with compassion and kindness.

    Many of us have been through so many traumas and bereavements and know just how much the pain drags you down on these anniversaries.

    Please post away and keep chatting to us. It's not quite as good as talking face to face with someone, but I think it's the next best thing.

    Please try to factor some "me" time into your day. Even if it's just 10-15 minutes. I know you're probably laughing right now but where there's a will there's a way (I'm one of five children). Could you have a nice bubbly bath, go for a short walk, read a book? I think we can often feel we are being selfish, but it's not. Far from it.

    If you would ever like to private message me for a chat, please feel free to do so.

    Wishing you much peace in your life.

    Lu xx

    Volunteer Administrator

  • Very good advise Lu.. gotta love that bubble bath.Peck 🛀🛀🛀

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