I teach and I have been off on sick leave for months now. I have asked to be refereed to the occupational physician as I am unable to go back to work. I am a sufferer of fibro for 11 years and I managed to work full time all this time until now, with just the occasional day/s off when having particular bad days. Of course, I recognise I managed to sustain this for years because as part of my routine, I used to spend every Saturday in bed to be able to recover the energies to be ready for the week. [Sometimes it was Saturdays and Sundays!!!!] I do have a wonderful husband that supports me and agreed that was the best way to allow me to keep my job, while he uses the Saturday to do the shopping and cooking that I could not do as well as the job. I have done hardly anything at home for years, as my grown up daughters helped with the house and also agreed that it was better for me to reserve my few energies for work, as that used to make me happy. Using my head and working was so important for me that I could not think of leaving it. Now I hardly had enough energy to leave the bed in the morning any day of the week after a sleepless night due to pain!!!!
Over the last 18 months the pain and exhaustion got progressively worst to the point where I am using morphine patches and tramadol all the time. I am exhausted 24/7 and my mind is most of the time in "la=la=land" with the fairys! I am not able to drive most of the time as my cognitive skills are not there either.
I am waiting to see the occupational physician to see if I can retire due to my situation now. I am really worry about his/her attitude and my future.If s/he doesn't agree with me, I will still retire but without a pension after contributing to the teachers pension scheme for long. I am almost 50 and after working so hard for so many years, I feel that leaving without a pension wouldn't be fair. On the other hand, I know that some doctors are still thinking that fibro is in our minds, so I am really worry. I am so, so, so very tired of the pain, the exhaustion, the insomnia, the IBS, the ...etc... I am not sure I will have the strength of fight a negative response....
I was wondering if any other member has gone through the same process and can give some tips???