**TW - discussion of loss** Pending Chemical

[LanaLoo742]

Hi. This is my second post - my first was ironically worrying about whether I could conceive due to some concerns around my cycle. My husband and I were/are TTC for 8 months, I had a positive test on an early detect on Saturday. I was both surprised (which is silly considering I was actively trying) and thrilled. But cautiously so. My luteal phase is only 9/10 days, so a late period for me is earlier than most. When I tested I was 14DPO - the line was there. The digital early detect confirmed I was pregnant.

I did what everyone seems to do and took further tests 48 hours later, and the line seemed fainter but was still there. Today, tests are negative. I’m crushed. I have no bleeding or cramps, so I guess I now just wait for that to come.

I honestly just don’t know how I do that. I was pregnant briefly, and now it seems I’m not. I know this is common, and I’m one in millions, but fuck. It really hurts. I’m a mess. It’s my Birthday on Friday, HBD to me, I guess.

[Allotmenteer16]

I'm so sorry, that must be so hard to go through. Be kind to yourself, allow time to grieve and then when you are ready think about what you want to do next. Life can be so cruel sometimes 😞

[LanaLoo742 in reply to Allotmenteer16]

2024 has been rough. Thank you for your words of comfort xxx

[Suz994]

I am so sorry you’re going through this especially right now 😔

It is so common and something I really wasn’t aware of until the last few months. April I had a 7w miscarriage, last month a chemical and this month the same again, both fading tests around 5 weeks. It has been crushing so I totally get what you’re feeling and I really am sorry that you have to go through this too. I’m currently feeling the same things you are and thinking why is this happening to me, but I know it will get better and we come out of this stronger ❤️ Take care and make sure you do something really special for yourself this birthday xx

[LanaLoo742 in reply to Suz994]

I am so so sorry, you have been through so much heartbreak - just you taking the time to reply to my post is so appreciated. You just can’t prepare yourself for this can you? It feels like grief, part of me wishes I never took that test - although it’s pointless because I always would have because my period was late. It was just so early.

Sending you so much love and support during this really tough time xxx

[Suz994 in reply to LanaLoo742]

I truly believe it is the feeling of grief that we have, and honestly it’s like a rollercoaster of emotions. Something bad happens, then something good and then you crash back down again - it’s really tough and the hormones really don’t help! You will get through this though and I just keep telling myself that I’m falling pregnant naturally which is a miracle in itself after having to go through IVF in 2022, I just need that rainbow now 🌈 xxx

[Christianbaby]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It’s incredibly tough to experience the hope and joy of a positive test, only for it to be taken away. I wish you strength and peace as you go through this difficult time. HBD might feel hollow right now, but I hope you can find moments of comfort on your birthday. xx