Infertility with a history of eating disorder

[SquishyBean]

Hi everyone, Just wondering if anybody can relate because I feel pretty isolated in this.

I have a long history of anorexia, which has been under control for quite a few years, but recently in the lead up to our first embryo transfer I've found the ED voice getting very loud and requiring a lot of management. A few weeks ago I was giving in to it and it became quite scary for a few days, but I fought back and have it under control again now, just about.

I know it's all to do with the anticipation and uncertainty of the transfer, and am doing all the right things - being honest with those around me so I stay accountable, have spoken to a counsellor at the clinic and trying to just take each day as it comes, not look too far ahead and focus on what I need to do each day, which is take my meds, eat enough and not overdo the exercise, but I guess it's a unique place to be, having both things going on at once, so wondering if anyone can relate?

[Running4u]

Hello, I have a history of bulimia, so not quite the same but I am well aware of those voices in our head. I've just started stims and it's made me really bloated, I'm also trying to be as open and honest with people about how this is impacting me already but by being honest, I'm getting the support and reassurance that bloating and putting on a bit of extra weight is healthy (although our brains say different). I've never been underweight, leaning towards the overweight side of healthy now, but running was my go to, really struggling not being able to do that, so trying to walk lots.

Have you spoken to your gp/pyshciatrist? My psych has put a care plan into place so if I am lucky enough to become pregnant I will be refereed to the perinatal mental health team. That has really helped me knowing I will be supported.

I'm also a solo mum so having reassurance and a back up plan is so helpful.

I might not be much support but feel free to give me a message, this is all so new to me xx

[LSandJ]

Yes, I can also relate and have a history of ED (which reared it's ugly head as we were about to embark on treatment). Give me a private message? Finally successful after a few years xx