**SENSITIVE, HOPE & FAITH **

[Applepie7]

**sensitive**

Hello, fellow warriors.

I hope everyone is well no matter what stage of the journey you are currently on.

I wanted to give you an update on my end and hope as it's been a long time since I have posted. This forum was my friend and family and my support network ever since Im embarked on my IVF journey 6 years ago.

Last year in Dec, I had my embroys tested, and all failed except one. I really had no hope, tbh and had already started looking into Donor Eggs and made an appointment with a clinic in Spain to start the DE IVF journey in Jan.

Because after 6 years of trying 8 failed cycles, including 3 IUI's and a twin pregnancy loss, you just lose faith and hope anyone would.

Dec 2022 I had my one only tested embroy transferred, and on NYD 2024, I got the BFP I have been waiting for. I couldn't believe it and cried and fell to the bathroom floor, a scene which has been the same when I have had so many BFN throughout the years.

During my TTC journey so much has happened in terms of my personal life some of which I havent been able to deal with or heal from as I blocked it out and just wanted to stay focused on my TTC journey this includes my mother having a heart attack and also finding out my husband was having an affair for 5 years whilst I was going through IVF.

I decided to give the marriage another go but deep down it hurts and I don't think I can ever forgive him but I look at my baby and just feel she needs both parents. She needs a father more than I need a husband. We are going to attand marriage counselling to see how we can move forward.

My pregnancy journey has been full of anxiety, and I have been terrified throughout. Each week I got through, I litterally signed a breath of relief. I have been living in fear in case of anything that goes wrong. I only told my employer and parents that I was expecting friends and family didnt know.

Issues I had during the pregnancy:

My golden age was always bought up, and so was the fact I had IVF. I was immediately regarded as high risk.

I had low PAPP-A and was on baby asprin for 36 weeks

I developed Gestational Diabetes which I controlled with diet as I was determined not to have more medication.

- Low iron and had to 250g iron supplements

The above also put me in the category of developing pre-eclampsia which thankfully I didn't.

I had more appointments in triage than scans as I was always scared and worried, so I kept going to hear babys hearbeat. The scans gave me reassurance for the time I was there, but as soon as I would leave, I would be filled with dread and panic.

11 days ago, I gave birth at the age of 45 to a beautiful baby girl she is my world and has completed me. She was worth every needle/every drug that was pumped into me and every tear. The odds were against me, but I tried my utmost best to get through every obstacle thrown my way.

Things I did before this transfer:

- fertility accupunture

- endo scratch

- daily clexane injections for 12 weeks than on asprin until 36 weeks.

- daily prontogest injections.

I hope this post doesn't upset anyone but gives hope. You can do this, and no force in the entire universe will stop you from achieving your dreams.

Hang in there. Please don't give up. I will stay on the forum and help with advice as and when I can.

Baby dust to you all xxx

[CarlottaD27]

Thank you for sharing this. Your strength and perseverance is really inspiring and I hope you enjoy the beautiful baby that i'm so so so pleased to hear you got in the end x

[Dogbiscuits28]

Thank you. Feeling in the pit of despair at second round ivf and failed transfer at 42. Am solo, so hard to go through alone, but not sure how you made it through all you did - and you got there!! So thank you for giving me a little faith. X

[olabode in reply to Dogbiscuits28]

Stay Strong!

[Citizenerased83]

I got so teary reading your post. Congrats on your baby. I hope you enjoy every cuddle.

You have been through so much - more than one person should have to endure.

I'm sorry to hear about your mum and your husband. I hope you're getting plenty of support and please do remember that you deserve a great husband just as much as your daughter deserves a great father. Sending you all the well wishes in the world x

[Asha82]

Congratulations on the birth of your precious baby girl xx

[Orangeflowers]

Congratulations! x

[Mimi6c]

Congratulations

[Weegran20]

Congratulations on the birth of your baby girl . A rocky journey indeed for you . I am sure your baby girl will bring you much needed enjoyment and fulfilment in the future.

Now you will be strong enough to decide what future role your husband has to play within your family . 🥰 love to you all x.

[olabode]

Congratulations!!! Thanks for sharing your story!!!

[kumkums]

Wow, what a journey. Congratulations on the arrival of your baby girl. May her birth bring joy and peace to your home in Jesus' name. Enjoy every moment you get with her. I am wishing and praying for the best for you. Thanks for sharing your story.

[Crie1983]

Congratulations on the birth of your baby girl. Wow, what a journey you have had. I can’t even imagine having to deal with that on top of ivf. You sound like a real inspiration and thank you for posting. Currently feeling so down after another failed cycle so needed to hear this. Lots of love to you and your baby girl. X

[Applepie7 in reply to Crie1983]

Hang in there! Easier said than done. Have some time out and when you are ready start again. Look after yourself x sending you positive energy ✨️

[Twiglet2]

congratulations mama 💜🤗 now the fun begins! Xx

[Cica22]

Congratulations!! Your story has given me hope 💕 xx

[Shelly085]

hi can I just ask did you have a small baby?