Hi,
I wrote a post last week and then deleted as felt quite overwhelmed having wrote everything down. Basically have been waiting to start IVF after being treated for Tubo ovarian abscess 2 years ago and having fallopian tubes removed. Went into baseline scan last week to finally start 1st ivf round to be told that now concerns around my ovaries/enlarged with mass taking up most of one. Absolutely gutted as always been told ovaries were ok.
Surrounded by friends and family having babies/pregnancies including unexpected surprises.
Now been told that follow up with fertility Dr is in 6 weeks. Can’t believe everything is on hold again and doubting it IVF will even work if ovaries affected.
Just feel really sad, repulsed by my body and a huge failure not even able to get to IVF stage. Am seeing a brilliant counsellor and trying to sit with my feelings/process but also find it really hard as my rationale brain constantly tells me how fortunate I am and that maybe just destined to have children.