everything on hold again

[Dragonfly1111]

Hi,

I wrote a post last week and then deleted as felt quite overwhelmed having wrote everything down. Basically have been waiting to start IVF after being treated for Tubo ovarian abscess 2 years ago and having fallopian tubes removed. Went into baseline scan last week to finally start 1st ivf round to be told that now concerns around my ovaries/enlarged with mass taking up most of one. Absolutely gutted as always been told ovaries were ok.

Surrounded by friends and family having babies/pregnancies including unexpected surprises.

Now been told that follow up with fertility Dr is in 6 weeks. Can’t believe everything is on hold again and doubting it IVF will even work if ovaries affected.

Just feel really sad, repulsed by my body and a huge failure not even able to get to IVF stage. Am seeing a brilliant counsellor and trying to sit with my feelings/process but also find it really hard as my rationale brain constantly tells me how fortunate I am and that maybe just destined to have children.

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Dragonfly. Oh you poor thing I’m so sorry this has happened after going through so much in recent years. We can’t do much about babies being around, that will always be. Use the six weeks wait to rest and look after you, then hopefully you can move forward and have the family you so deserve. Thinking of you. Diane