Natural FET possibly cancelled

[SMBCnewbie]

I had a failed fresh transfer at the beginning of June. The plan was made to try for a natural modified FET this month as my cycles are regular and the risk of prenatal hypertension with a hormone FET was not ideal for me. I had my day 10 scan on Thurs and my dominant follicle was already 14.5mm but my lining wasn't very thick. The clinic says they trigger at 18mm and said it might reach that size today (Sunday) and if this is the case then the cycle will be cancelled because they do transfers 1 week after trigger, and they don't do them on a Sunday.

I have to wait for another scan tomorrow (Day 14) to see if the follicle is still there and not showing signs of collapse/ovulation. Last month I ovulated on day 16 which is what we want this time but my cycle is only 26 days so I think that was an anomaly.

I have been tracking LH over the last few days and its started going up consistently like the beginning of a surge. I'm so upset by this. It messes with your mind when usually all you want is to ovulate and then now I'm desperate not to yet. I booked time off work for a couple of weeks to relax and look after myself around the transfer day and now it might all get cancelled and will have to wait again. I was geared up for it and can't face disappointment after my failed transfer. It doesn't even look like the timings will be less stressful/more clear cut next month, inspite of a regular cycle, its just falling on the wrong days each time.

I felt like it was my fault for not choosing the HRT FET, the clinic sortve just said that's the problem with choosing a natural cycle. I wasn't even told the timings might be off because they didn't take into account my shorter cycle.

I'm driving myself mad with not knowing for sure and willing my body to do what I want it to do, I can't control it, but also knowing the chances it'll happen this month are slim. I'm so worried it'll be too late and they won't know so go ahead and waste my precious embryo. I thought this would be easier but it turns out that IVF and transfers just offer up every different type of uncertainty at every turn. Sorry for the rant. I just needed to get my thoughts off my chest as I'm struggling.

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi SMBCnewbie. Oh dear so awkward not really knowing what’s to happen. If your lining doesn’t thicken up enough, they may just cancel and save your embryo until they can manage you better. Obviously I hope all does go to plan. Diane

[SMBCnewbie in reply to DianeArnold]

I had my LH peak yesterday and the scan showed my follicle had collapsed today. Too early. My lining was 7.8mm today, up from 4.8mm on Day 10. Not perfect thickness really. I am waiting to hear from consultant about plan. Thank you