Tired of all this

[Blueberry211]

Hello!

I did a third egg retrieval and unfortunately we only have one PGT euploid embryo transfer. I try to keep positive and think happy thoughts but I have been bombarded with many pregnancy announcements lately and I have been waking up with low mood wondering if this will ever happen.

Also I keep thinking if this doesn't work, do I have the energy for a fourth egg retrieval? I have no idea how I have done so many treatments and I have nothing to show for it.

Thank you for keeping me sane and I wish you that all your dreams come true 💗

[Corchi]

sending so much love ❤️ I feel you

[Blueberry211 in reply to Corchi]

Thank you ❤️

[HedgehogMad]

Oh blueberry I'm so sorry to read this - this may be the one though 🤞 do you have any mosaic embryos? The evidence nowadays is that low level mosaics have a good chance too xx

[Blueberry211 in reply to HedgehogMad]

Yes I have one but still unsure what to do. I had 5 euploid transferred- and I always think if those dont work, how will the mosaic work?

[HedgehogMad in reply to Blueberry211]

Please don't dismiss the mosaic - a lot of evidence now that they can self correct. It may be that the others failed because of the uterine septum they found, in which case it is still worth trying or at least talking to your clinic about. Sending you lots of love, this journey sucks xxx

[Blueberry211 in reply to HedgehogMad]

Thank you so so much for your words of courage. Yes I will keep this in mind!

[Eggfreezer2015]

It’s a tough and challenging journey. You’re not alone in feeling and thinking like that, which I’m sure many of us on here can attest to. The energy it takes to do this time and time again is exhausting and I think it’s natural to get those times when you’re like can I really do this again… For some people it’s enough and they can’t, and that’s absolutely ok. And for some after a while the thoughts pass, they reset and somehow manage to pull ourselves together and continue on the IVF journey… once your feelings and emotions settle a bit, you’ll figure out what’s right for you. Sending you big hugs in the meantime ❤️

[Blueberry211 in reply to Eggfreezer2015]

Thank you so much for your lovely message. It is true, this is a rollercoaster 🎢

[Skittles11]

Hi Blueberry. Sorry to hear you find yourselves in this situation. I can definitely relate. I did a series of IVF fresh cycles last year in a bid to embryo bank - it was a total of three fresh cycles plus one cancelled. Got four embryos in total across the cycles and it took all year to go through but in the end only one tested PGTA euploid. It was really disappointing after all of those cycles. My energy, like yours, is well and truly depleted. I guess I would say to try and focus on one thing at a time to prevent getting overwhelmed but I totally get what an impossible task that is and would find it hard to follow my own advice!

Take good care xx

[Blueberry211 in reply to Skittles11]

Thank you so much 🥰 it is so hard isn't it? I am trying to focus on this embryo but I am still finding it hard to believe it will ever work after so many disappointments.

[Minniemouse88]

Just sending you love and hope for the outcome you deserve. You have incredible strength and resilience. Take good care xxx

[Blueberry211 in reply to Minniemouse88]

Thank you so much for your lovely words. I am all that but I feel that I am about to break 💔

[Minniemouse88 in reply to Blueberry211]

I hope you have someone to lean on whilst you're feeling understandably low and that this feeling passes soon. Rest up and know you're not alone!

[Blueberry211 in reply to Minniemouse88]

I have friends/ family but only you can understand the pain this whole process brings. Those who don't pass through this cannot understand

[Mlove12]

Hi Blueberry,

I also just done a pose on practically the same feelings your having right now too, can definitely relate. This is a tiresome journey, I have decided this third round will be out final found for us, we don’t have anything in the freezer either sadly. Know that you are so so strong, I really admire your strength and determination. If you want to have a chat, please don’t hesitate to pop me a message, as I can definitely relate to the constant feeling of low mood at the moment too! Hope your ok x

[Blueberry211 in reply to Mlove12]

Thank you so much for your uplifting post xxxx I wish you all the luck for your transfer!!! ❤️❤️ We ll keep moving day by day

[MamaWeez]

hi blueberry! I know how you feel. I had only one viable embryo out of 12 embryos during my third Ivf round as well. It broke my heart. I was crying all day on transfer day, I was even hysterical on that transfer table while the doctor was transferring my last embryo. It was my 6th transfer and first PGS IVf round. This only embryo was a boy who is now 11 months today and currently refusing to take his nap. It’s true when they say, it only takes one embryo! Wishing you all the best, fingers crossed this last embryo is the one!

[Blueberry211 in reply to MamaWeez]

I had 12 eggs mature!! I hope I would be as lucky 🤞🏻 super happy for you and enjoy this beautiful time xx

[Piggypiggy82]

You’ve learned so much from all the tests and procedures, and at a fairly early stage too. Don’t give up! So many people have to do a fresh retrieval for every transfer. You’re doing great!!!! 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼 x

[Blueberry211 in reply to Piggypiggy82]

Thank you so much xxx yes it feels overwhelming. Will try to keep positive

[Linzeeee]

so sorry you are feeling crap and can relate ! I had three rounds with not even a single embryo formed. Looking into donor embryos now. I was told euploid embryos have a decent chance of resulting in successful live birth (60% or even 70%) but if you had multiple failed rounds even with euploid there are tests you can do for your uterine lining to make sure it’s ready and finding the most accurate window to implant e.g ERA test. Has your doc mentioned ? Some other clinics also believe steroids help if there is an underlying issue with immunology.

[Blueberry211 in reply to Linzeeee]

I have done Mri, hysterosalpingogrpahy, 3 D us, era emma alice . I have done a hysterescopy last months where I found a septum and that hopefully was the hindrance

[Blueberry211 in reply to Blueberry211]

I also took aspirin clexane and steroids and intralipids added in last cycle

[Blueberry211 in reply to Blueberry211]

Each euploid has around 40 percent chance of sticking. I have read multiple statistics at this point and some clinics do increase it to attract patients unfortunately. With donor eggs/ sperm/ embryos you do have more chance as the patients are usually younger but I would still recommend personally to test them as still they may have a lof of aneuploidy. Now this is just my opinion based on my research, ask your docs on all possible chances for success xxx