Update on egg collection following poor follicle growth

[Skittles11]

Hi all

I thought I would come on and give an update after everyone's support earlier this week.

We have had slow follicle growth throughout this cycle which has been massively disappointing. I was unexpectedly told to trigger on Friday night after my LH was rising indicating impending ovulation. So my body wanted to ovulate despite smaller follicles and few of them.

Egg collection was this morning. I was terrified of getting no eggs as this happened on my first cycle with similar numbers and sizes.

Alas this did not happen. They retrieved two mature eggs but two had already ovulated. What the heck? Why do I keep having to be part of stats that are so rare like no eggs and ovulating early not to mention my baby with Edwards Syndrome resulting in interruption of pregnancy.

I know these two may be okay but I am not hopeful. And I feel numb...not crying like I have done many times previously xx

[AuroraXen]

Oh honey. I'm sorry this has been a disappointing cycle 😔 I'm glad you at least got 2 mature eggs but what a shame 2 already ovulated! That's so frustrating. Thank goodness they did the right thing and opened up for you today to do the EC 😬 So many clinics value schedules too much to do that (I doubt mine would ever open on a Sunday 😔). Maybe if your body was convinced it's ovulation time these will be 2 great eggs! Both could give you PGT confirmed normal embies 🤞 I really hope they do. It's so unfair when you keep finding yourself in the 'oh this hardly ever happens' category 😔 🤬 Xx

[AuroraXen in reply to AuroraXen]

Oh but I get the not crying... I hardly cried at all on my recent FET failure and usually I'm in floods of tears. You just start shutting down and becoming numb to all this sadness. Sometimes it just feels like this process saps all your emotions and there's nothing left 😔💜 xx

[Skittles11 in reply to AuroraXen]

Thank you Aurora. My husband is of a similar mindset and says to me hopefully these two eggs will be of good quality. He is ever the optimist even in the face of all this c**p whereas I am more the pessimist. I know matters could have been much worse if they had stuck to original plan of EC on Monday so I am at least in a better position in that respect. I just can't bear this and as you can relate to, am definitely shutting down when things like this happen. I know it's not over yet but my natural thought process is already consumed with "what next?" Xx

[AuroraXen in reply to Skittles11]

My husband is very optimistic too. It actually kind of gets on my nerves a bit though sometimes 😂 He frankly doesn't understand all this as much as I do and keeps saying 'if no luck with ivf it will happen naturally'. But he doesn't realise how crappy our chances are sometimes. Then I panic I'm not optimistic enough and think I'm jinxing it. Thing is, I WAS super optimistic in the beginning!! It just all wears you down doesn't it xx

[Skittles11 in reply to AuroraXen]

It definitely weighs you down big time. I feel less optimistic as time goes on and as we have said that feeling of frustration starts to override the tears. I am surprised I have had no tears today but I haven't. I know in the past I would have xx

[Gempuddleduck]

Skittles11 I am so so sorry to hear this. It’s so shit and disappointing after all you have been through. I didn’t even know this could happen?!? Did they say how or why??

[Skittles11 in reply to Gempuddleduck]

Thank you Gem. I didn't know this could happen either. I didn't know you could ovulate from some of the follicles and not others. They didn't say how or why, just that the larger two follicles had ovulated and they couldn't retrieve them as they'd already left the follicles. They gave us a little kit to try self insemination at home for the two eggs that have left the follicles, never tried this before so I guess that's a small additional chance xx am gutted and fed up xx

[Gempuddleduck in reply to Skittles11]

I bet you are. Don’t give up though and try those kits at home. 🍀💕Would you consider trying your normal embryo next? Xx

[Gempuddleduck in reply to Gempuddleduck]

I’ve just realised you’ve got two that didn’t ovulated! This is great news! Xx

[Skittles11 in reply to Gempuddleduck]

Possibly. Was trying to embryo bank but don't know now whether to persevere with that xx

[Gempuddleduck in reply to Skittles11]

And is this all private? I would ask for a consultation to find out how they are going to prevent this happening again if so.

[Blueberry211]

I am so sorry this has been a disappointing cycle for you. You have been through so much and your feelings are completely valid and understandable. I wish there are more words of wisdom I can offer. There is still hope for the two mature eggs so dont give up!! Xxx here for you if you need

[Skittles11 in reply to Blueberry211]

Thank you Blueberry. That's lovely of you. Am grateful for those on here who lift me up during / after these nightmares xx

[Skittles11]

*UPDATE* for anyone who is interested -

Of my two eggs which were retrieved yesterday at egg collection both have fertilised. Please cross your fingers for me for these to make it through to blast as they have a long way to go xx

[Redsequin in reply to Skittles11]

THE BEST NEWS!! This is such a positive start and I'll be keeping everything crossed they're tenacious little embryos and make it all the way to day-5. xxx

[Hidden]

Everything crossed Skittles, take this as a win and think positive xx