Bleeding again (5+5) - rollercoaster continues

[Riri88]

So… I think I am mainly writing this to help me process it in some kind of way…. Plus all of you have been so incredibly supportive to me. After huge pains and a big bleed on Tuesday but a normal scan, I was Oke-ish and hopeful but tonight started bleeding again, with cramps/aching and mild low back pain. Not as acute as it was on Tuesday but enough to make me worry and wondering if this time I am seeing more small clots? Sadly my IVF clinic is closed over the weekend and the nearest EPU is closed as well. I am not that severe I feel A&E is worth a visit (yet) and having a scan scheduled Tuesday but gosh, the wait! Especially feeling like the clots and aches are the signs it really is still bad news.

The hypothesis was that the previous bleed was a SCH that resolved very quickly once it bled out but if the scan was clear Tuesday it would be strange for it to grow again wouldn’t it? And I wouldn’t expect as many cramps perhaps as many woman don’t even realise they have one until a scan?

Just trying to find something to hang on to and that we are not out yet but it feels everything is against us at the moment 😥

Any success stories of women who bled throughout these early weeks with maybe small clots + cramps to still go on having a healthy pregnancy? I know I am probably asking for a miracle.

[Live-the-dream1]

Hey lovely, I really have no words.I’m totally understanding your thoughts and worries, I didn’t just want to scroll by either.

Sending lots of positiveness and hugs 💕 xx

[Riri88 in reply to Live-the-dream1]

Thank you! ❤️

[Orangeflowers]

Keep positive. I bled from 6 weeks to over 12 weeks every day and had a successful pregnancy and beautiful daughter x

[Riri88 in reply to Orangeflowers]

Thank you for explaining your journey! I really hope I will be one of those people in the end! ❤️

I did speak to a different EPU in the end and going through my history of this being my 6th pregnancy (between natural and IVF) yet no live births just obviously made me realise how much hope I am putting on this pregnancy. And how little I can do to change the outcome. But I am going to try to be positive and we are not out until we are 100% out!

[Lucy92x]

No words of advice from me but thinking of you and hope this is a healthy pregnancy and your happy ever after🤍

[Riri88 in reply to Lucy92x]

Thank you, hope is all we have ❤️

[sun-and-rain]

I totally relate ❤ Sending big hugs your way ❤

[Riri88 in reply to sun-and-rain]

Thank you! Bleeding has reduced but did definitely have some tissue clots (dissolved them in a cup of water to check 🙄🤔 and they are def greyish tissue but small). Cramps and back ache are just constant ongoing which worries me most but put myself on bed rest with maybe a gentle walk today. And hoping for the best but so tired of it all! The mental side of things in combi with everything I feel down there is just draining. I guess in a few days we might have an answer.

I hope you are doing Oke my love!

[sun-and-rain in reply to Riri88]

You're a warrior ❤❤❤

[Mar786]

Sending over lots of prays!! It can go either way i guess as bleeding or even clots does not always turn out bad!! Fingers crossed for you - thinking of you xxx

[Riri88 in reply to Mar786]

Thank you and wishing you all the strength in your difficult journey as well! ❤️

[Hidden]

Did you transfer one or two embryos? I am sorry its such a worrying time, I think with your history you are realistic it could be bad news but equally I have seen so many good news stories after bleeding on here.. I so hope you are one of them xx

[Riri88 in reply to Hidden]

I hope so to! Booked a private scan tomorrow 🙈 just to help know what is going on in there even if it is just to see a sac still present. Or if not to just know… will wait and see!

We only transferred 1 so don’t think it is because 1 got rejected and 1 didn’t or something like that. Hopefully we will know a bit more again tomorrow.

[Skippy1982]

How did your scan go? Is everything ok? 🤞🏻🤞🏻xxx

[Riri88]

So had 2 scans now, private last Sunday at 6wks and today at 6wks+2 and both showing growth on time and a heartbeat! Weirdly didn’t want to mention it yet on here as if I was jinxing it until I had todays scan. (My silly mind)

Really pleased but had again bleeding after Sundays scan so the bleeding freaks me out every time and every toilet visit is a anxious wait if I see blood or not. I know I have to trust all is well but the intermittent bleeding is definitely taking some of the joy away! And my 5 previous early losses don’t help to be honest.

Need to learn to relax and trust it will make it! But yes great news for now ❤️