I honestly just wanted to thank everyone on here. I think without all your support I may have lost my s**t over the last 4 years. Infertility is soo difficult. I’ve gone through sooo many different emotions (ttc for 10 years). Anger, sadness, excitement, devastation, depression, desperation, happy, indifferent … arsed 😂 I think I have felt every single possible emotion. Even hitting rock bottom at one point where I struggled to even get out of my bed.
I’ve wanted to punch people who are popping out there 5th child even though they barely look after the other 4. I’ve held it together when friends have said they are having children and looked on excitedly at the scan, smiled happily at the baby shower and gender reveal all the while thinking … ‘grrrrr’
I’ve laughed and joked with the little old man in the local shop asking how far along I am ….. Nono just fat 😂 I’ve smiled and said things like ‘oh not yet’ and ‘We’re happy just the two of us’ when that old school friends asks if we have children. While she tells me alllll about hers.
I’ve cried on the toilet, in the car, literally christened every single room of my house with tears. But then I wash my face and greet the guest at the door with a massive smile … maybe their day has been worse than mine.
I know that every single one of us is fighting a slightly different version of the same battle. For some it’s secretive, others are more open. Whatever you choose to do we are all there for each other. Not one person should go through this alone. Maybe one day our dream of having a family will come true, maybe it won’t. But we are blooming strong men and women for giving it all that we’ve got. Good luck and soo much love to every single one of you xxx