Final cycle before icsi

[Joeysjourney]

Well folks, that was the last cycle before my planned icsi where I could have fallen pregnant naturally. Negative early test this morning. We really tried and tried the last few months and I've been taking my supplements, had lots of acupuncture and had a decent diet. Why did I convince myself this would be the miracle month!?

Anyway, planned short protocol starting mid Feb and I'm starting the pill now to control my cycle. I'd really hoped and prayed and manifested that I wouldn't have to face another full round but wasn't meant to be. I'm just worried that having never ever seen a positive test result that it's never gonna happen.

Round 2 here we come x

Lots of love and luck to all of you x

[Hidden]

Good luck for round two! I know what you mean, so often people 'get pregnant by accident' once they have committed to another round.. sorry it didn't happen for you.

At least its out of your control now - its the consultants nurses who are in charge now! Wishing you heaps of luck x

[Joeysjourney in reply to Hidden]

Exactly, just hoped I'd be one of the lucky ones! Not sure why after never seeing a positive ever in my 40 years! Really makes me feel its never gonna happen x

[Fruitandflowers]

I never had a BFP in seven years before IVF, and I pretty much didn't test as my cycles were pretty regular and I didn't want the disappointment confirmed when I could have a few more days convincing myself that maybe this month would be the one. I did test between an early loss after my first ICSI round earlier this year and my second round as I'd been encouraged by my first ever BFP and heard you're more fertile straight after a loss. It was a BFN. It was disappointing that I hadn't beaten the odds and been one of 'those stories', and the second round was private so money was also a worry, but that second round we got much better numbers and I'm now expecting after a FET from that, so very glad we went ahead. Best of luck x

[Joeysjourney in reply to Fruitandflowers]

Aw sorry to hear of your loss after all those years of trying and finally seeing a positive. I'm sure that was so so tough! I totally get you about not testing. The only reason I tested is cause I felt these funny twinges last week around the implantation window and then i have a smear tomorrow and didn't want anyone poking up there if anything had stuck. Wishful thinking on my part! I'm encouraged that you were able to get a bfp after icsi so I'll try to stay positive xx

[Fruitandflowers in reply to Joeysjourney]

Totally understand that - one of our friends is one of the 'stories' - in her 40s, one grown up child, no partner, periods had gone sporadic and she thought she was going through menopause and when she went for her smear they told her she was 4 months pregnant! So it does happen, just sadly not for us and we needed the help. It was tough but the right decision to keep going x

[Joeysjourney in reply to Fruitandflowers]

Goodness me, that's a story and a half! Yes just have to dig in and keep moving forward! It's such a scary journey xx

[Llizzie]

Don’t be cross at yourself for having hope. I was exactly the same, it’s normal and a sign that you have your heart set on having a child. Crossing everything for your second round xx

[Joeysjourney in reply to Llizzie]

Thank you for the lovely reply! Yes I was cross for being silly enough to think it might just happen but you're right, it's good to have hope x

[Llizzie in reply to Joeysjourney]

Miracles happen, they’re just different for everyone. Mine wasn’t the last ditch natural cycle I was hoping for, but my round did work (with low likelihood), so my little miracle is kicking up a storm this second and will arrive next month. Take it one step at a time and be kind to yourself x

[Joeysjourney in reply to Llizzie]

Thats wonderful news! Congratulations to you both! It only takes one hey xx