Back on the IVF journey! Feeling emotional 😭 😢

[Faith103]

Hi All,

Hope all is as well as can be 😃 ❤️

I am back on the IVF train sooner than I thought, 7 months after having my first IVF miracle me and my partner have had a heart to heart and we have decided we will be starting the process for a little sibling for our baby boy.

Long story short the pain of not being able to plan your family still hurts even after having one miracle. My endometriosis is returning and causing a lot of pain and we think the best thing to control this is contraception. We think the best option is to complete our family and then I don’t have to deal with the endo pains every month and go through the hurt of seeing my period arrive knowing we have not got pregnant naturally.

It never gets easier but I have to keep on pushing to make my little family bigger. I never went on contraception after giving birth to my boy 7 months ago and with having one tube removed due to endo we have decided IVF again is the best route.

We will be calling the clinic tomorrow to start the process.

I never left this site since I conceived my miracle in June last year. I intend to help others as much as I can.

Hoping my next ivf journey is going to run as smoothly as the first 🤞 xxxx

Love to you all ❤️

[FrancyItaly]

Best of luck ❤️

[Faith103 in reply to FrancyItaly]

❤️❤️❤️

[KiboXX]

Welcome back to crazy town 🤪

We recently made the same decision, our little miracle is 11 months old and we started our FET about 7 weeks ago. I know there are so many emotions that go into making that decision to get back on this rollercoaster, especially when you have such a little one.

Wishing you all the luck in the world for this next chapter in your IVF journey xxx

[Faith103 in reply to KiboXX]

Lovely to hear!

How is your FET going? Can I just ask how long does the process take form start to finish? We have 4 embryos in the freezer so we will be going into FET.

Definitely difficult to decide with having such a young one but time isn’t on our side and I think why not just get it out of the way whilst our son is still young.

Emotions are all over I was crying today as I thought it might happen naturally for us after having our son but fate has something else in mind ❤️ xxx

[KiboXX in reply to Faith103]

I know exactly how you feel, I think we always think in the back of our minds we might be one of those that has a natural miracle after but sadly not for us either. Part of me really wants to draw a line under IVF as well so I was keen to get going with our Frosties and see what happened.

Ours was super quick 😂 My consultant had been on maternity leave so we booked an app with her on her first day back, which was 22nd July, hoping to talk about dates in the next few months. I’d started my period that day so she said we could start immediately, walked out with my pack of Progynova! For IVF, it felt really spontaneous and that was actually quite nice. We just had our viability scan this week and so far so good ♥️ xxx

[Faith103 in reply to KiboXX]

Awwww 😯 wow 🤩 it worked for your first time! That’s fabulous news. So pleased for you.

Did it work for you first time with your first miracle. My son was a first shot so I’m hoping same this time but I don’t want to get my hopes up. But I’m praying 🙏 ❤️

So basically do you start on the start of your cycle? When do they do the transfer in your cycle? sorry for all the questions xxxx

[KiboXX in reply to Faith103]

It’s fine, ask away! Normally you start tablets on the first day of full period so normally day 2. Take the tablets for around 10ish days, have a scan to check your lining and then start progesterone. Transfer 5 days later.

No my daughter took me four fresh rounds but she was worth it 🥰 I honestly put my first three failed rounds down to being with a crap clinic though. We moved for our fourth and they’ve been amazing xx

[Faith103 in reply to KiboXX]

Thanks for that I wasn’t sure what happened. ❤️

I am calling the clinic tomorrow to see when we can start.

Sometimes like you say the clinics can make a difference. Our clinic has been amazing too. I did mild ivf so went for less eggs but better quality. We ended up with 5 which I’m pleased about. We have 4 left.

I think it’s difficult. Honestly I thought after having my first miracle I wouldn’t feel so disheartened having a period but every month my heart just sinks and I think here we go again. I feel bad sometimes feeling like that as some other woman are still trying for their first miracle.xxx

[KiboXX in reply to Faith103]

I found doing a frozen transfer super easy and quick compared to a fresh round so it’s amazing you have those Frosties.

You absolutely don’t have to feel bad or apologise for wanting to add to your family and being hurt that it hasn’t happened the old fashioned way. I’ve always wanted a baby but I’ve always desperately dreamed of more than one as I loved growing up with siblings xxx

[Faith103 in reply to KiboXX]

Yes me too! I grew up with siblings.

I am 33 in nov so I would like to try and enjoy my baby’s before I get even more tired than I already am 😂 lol

I am glad it’s an easy process as I’m going back to uni in Oct and I really don’t fancy the visits to the clinic as often as you do on a fresh transfer.

How many visits do you do on a frozen transfer.?

How do you feel in this pregnancy. I was so ill with my son with sickness 😷 xxx

[KiboXX in reply to Faith103]

I only had the one scan and then day of transfer so as long as everything goes to plan, it’s not too bad!

Oh my sickness is awful at the moment. Exactly the same as last time 🥴 It did go by 12 weeks with my daughter so praying it’s the same this time, I forgot how shitty this bit is!x

[Faith103 in reply to KiboXX]

Oh yes the first 12 weeks are horrible. You feel so tired and drained to. Hoping it goes quickly for you ❤️

Thanks so much for your advice and help with the FET. It’s nice to know what’s ahead. I’m sure you will see my updates and I hope for a good result 🤞 xxx

[Ivfgotadream]

Welcome back! I still lurk on this board too! My twins are 7 months and I still have 2 more (higher graded) embryos frozen. We wouldn’t do another egg collection as the twins took us 5 rounds but I can’t bring myself to destroy our last 2. (Lost both tubes to ectopics so I feel really sentimental and emotionally invested that these are the last 2 embryos we will ever make)

I’d like to do another transfer but I’m the main earner and work full time and full time childcare for the twins is crippling so I’d need to wait until they get 30 hours - hopefully that is long enough to get husband to agree to a final transfer!

[Faith103 in reply to Ivfgotadream]

It’s such a difficult decision as we can’t pick the best time to have children like most people can.

I feel I would like to be in a better position but we just don’t have that option do we. It’s like now or never type thing.

Congratulations on the twins I bet you have your hands full with 2. 😃

I also feel sad about destroying my embryos so I can going to try for siblings after all they are our baby’s after all 😀

All the best to you and your little family xxx

[Jess1981]

I am so sorry endo pain returned with a vengeance 😞 I was very lucky mine is better since my 3rd & last surgery stayed ok ever since and made conceiving possible ( before endo treated it was impossible) I wasn't sure we would manage to conceive didn't know if endo had re grown etc after our Francesca but we have managed to conceive to both of our surprises & being soooo much older 😂- after losing Amelia at 20 weeks last November and. 2 early miscarriages in January and March we are 16 weeks pregnant hoping this is our rainbow baby to complete our family 🤞🏻 I'm still a nervous wreck and really hate pregnancy scans and heartbeat checks! I was shocked we fell so easily with Amelia ( trying for Francesca was a huge struggle)and a midwife said to me she's heard of many women that have had a struggle to have a baby and then just fall easily as having a baby somehow re boots the system. I think you have every chance of having another baby ( I know it's a difficult decision to make to try again) I want to wish you the very best Xx

[Faith103 in reply to Jess1981]

Sorry to hear about your little girl. ❤️I remember you telling me about her a while ago my heart goes out to you. This must have been so hard and still stays with you everyday.

Massive congratulations on your rainbow miracle.

I totally understand how you feel with scans etc I was the same with my son. It’s so hard but you will get there. Stay positive and good luck for the rest of your pregnancy.

I hope you get a break from endo once your next miracle has joined your family. Mine retuned quite quickly.

All the best to you too! Look forward to your update on your second miracle arriving xxx ❤️

[gianna83]

I am in exactly the same spot as you are. I gave birth to my baby in February and we are going to go down the ivf route again asap. It also pains me so much that we can't conceive naturally and it is a heartache when my period comes every month.

[Faith103 in reply to gianna83]

I feel your pain. My boy was born in February too. It never goes away until your family is complete.

I hate the dreaded period. Can’t wait until periods don’t make me feel like a failure xxx 😘

Hope you’re okay

[ZiggyandBC]

Good luck!! I have endo and am waiting to start my first cycle! I’m absolutely terrified but I’m praying for a miracle! ❤️

[Faith103 in reply to ZiggyandBC]

Good luck 🤞

Always here to chat. You will be fine. Endo makes the journey hard but ivf gives the body a little help and makes it easier.

Just try and relax best you can xxx

[Goldenegg1]

I’m totally with you on the endo as it runs in my family and whilst on the pill it helps me to prevent it from affecting me. I know with my stupidly heavy periods that the longer I stay off the pill the more likely it is for me to develop endo but it’s painful to think about going back on the pill knowing that it stops my dreams from becoming a reality.

I think your brave look after your body. Baby’s quickly together is tough on your health..

[Faith103 in reply to Goldenegg1]

100 % feel actually what you have said. I feel the same. I want to try naturally but I’m just making my endo and body worse by not slowing down the endo.

7 months after giving birth and the last few months my endo has been bad so I know I need to make a move and let my body rest.

I hope you get your miracle soon. Always here to chat xxx

[keepfaith1982]

Hi Faith103 congratulations on havingYour miracle baby ☺️❤️ I wish you all the best for your journey for baby 2 - i to have endometriosis and low amh please can I ask if you was on short or long protocol? And how many rounds did it take to have baby? X

[Faith103 in reply to keepfaith1982]

Thank you ❤️

I went on short protocol (mild ivf) which concentrates on quality of eggs rather than quantity.

I got 8 eggs altogether with 5 of them being high quality Frosties.

We got pregnant with our miracle first time.

It’s a pretty good chance to get pregnant with endo when doing ivf as endo usually makes it harder for us due to the journey when trying naturally.

I’m here if you need to chat or any advice xxx

[Countrychic]

Good luck 😄 We are in the same boat, our little boy is almost 9 months and have just contacted the clinic to start another round of IVF. We have no embryos in storage and need to start from the beginning. Already feeling a little frustrated by delays. We need to wait 12 weeks for an initial appointment. We hoped to start treatment around then. I contacted them months ago to discuss a plan, they said contact us in September to start treatment in December and then was told there is a six month waiting list 🙄 However, I know regardless of what happens going forward, we are so blessed to have our amazing little boy 💙

[Faith103 in reply to Countrychic]

Sorry about the delay but good news on getting started again 😃

I’m going to call the clinic tomorrow to try and get the ball rolling, fingers crossed the wait isn’t to long.

Looking forward to seeing your updates in the near future xxx good luck 😉

[Countrychic in reply to Faith103]

Good luck to you too 😉🤞🍀