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Morning all, hope you’re all well.

Just feeling a low today, AF showed up this morning after being a few days late. It was my first cycle of clomid and I dared to think it would work for us. It feels like it’s been a long 2 years of TTC. I know there are so many of you that have been trying longer. I just feel like I want to give up but I know I can’t. I don’t know where to find the strength any more. The not knowing if anything will work absolutely destroys me.

I’m sorry for the negative post, I just needed to get it out 😔.

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Millbanks

Hi Catlady, I think this is something that everyone here will have felt at some point (or often) - there are so many ups and downs with any fertility journey and you are bound to feel like this sometimes. But there are so many success stories - even against all the odds, so don't give up yet. I find a lot of strength from the ladies on here, and there are lots of other avenues to be explored before you call it quits. Sending you lots of love xx

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Catlady101 in reply to Millbanks

Thank you for that. I know you’re right and I’m so glad I found this group. I just wish someone could say it’ll be okay and we’ll get there. I bet everyone must feel the same. Some days are just so much harder than others to see the way forward. Thank you again xx

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Millbanks in reply to Catlady101

I know exactly what you mean - some days I just wish someone could tell me that it would all be worth it in the end and it WILL work - then I could stop worrying and take as long as it does... but of course no one can tell you that so you have to find the inner strength. If it helps, I found that it gets easier the further along you go. You learn to celebrate the little wins like a good egg collection, or a good lining thickness, and learn to not give yourself such a hard time when things aren't going well. We're always here for you too xx

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Catlady101 in reply to Millbanks

Thank you that means so much. I’m so glad I found this group xx

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Frankie08

Hello Catlady101,

I understand, i am also having a down day. I had my first cycle of ICIS and had my BFN last week. I have been so up and down. Yesterday i felt positive that i will get my baby one day. Today i am full of anxiety, doubts, fear.

All i can say is that we will get there, we are so strong, we have to keep going.

Thinking of you xx

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Catlady101 in reply to Frankie08

Thank you, and I feel for you and all the others going through this. I’ve never felt pain like this before. It’s unbelievable to me the strength that people show going through these journeys. I really hope we all get there xx

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lizzybee81

Hi, please don't be down. I never got on with Clomid either. It felt like the NHS was holding it back like some sort of holy grail that I had to go through 18 months of tests and consultations so I had a lot of hope and was also so disappointed.

It didn't help that they held it out like some sort of miracle, we can't give you too much (I was only given 50mg) you'll have egg depletion (I hadn't had a period in over a year so had 12 reserve by my calculation!) you'll conceive multiples (and? would be bloody thrilled!)

It just doesn't work for some people, IVF was the only drug therapy that got me to grow eggs after 2 years+ of not ovulating. Big hugs

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Catlady101 in reply to lizzybee81

Thank you. I do feel like I’m being fobbed off a bit by being given Clomid. I’ve been lucky to have regular periods and I think I ovulate on my own so I’m worried I’ll be using up more eggs than I should be on this drug. I feel helpless to do anything but go by what the consultant has said. So frustrating xx

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Ranchu90

Oh I been there I am understand you perfectly 🤗 I tried 5 months with Clomid and unfortunately didn't work for me. I should have tried 6 months but on 5th month I had to call the ambulance because of the side effects that I was having. I had all the hopes in this world that this will work but I was hell wrong. Since then we did 4 IVF cycles. Life is so cruel...but I never gave up I will carry on doing whatever a can so I could fulfill my life with a miracle that we are waiting for so long to happen.

I am really hoping that you will be the lucky one getting pregnant with Clomid. I wish you all the best and good luck dear ♥️🤗

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Catlady101 in reply to Ranchu90

Thank you, I’m so sorry to hear what you went through, that’s awful. I have to say I’m not thrilled to be on it, I wish I could skip this step as I think they’ve given it to me to shut up for 6 months. I really hope you get there, you’re so strong going through all this xx

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Ranchu90 in reply to Catlady101

You can ask them to stop after 3 months if you feel that is not working for you. Don't waste your precious time as if you will decide to go on IVF route age is a very import factor for success stories. I started when I was 24 -25 years old and in a month I will be 30. That long time it took me. All doctors was saying to me that I am young and I have time. No, this is completely wrong. Time flies! Don't listen to them, push as much as you can for things to move on, this is my advice XX

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Catlady101 in reply to Ranchu90

I think you’re right, yes I’m already 30 and I feel like I’m worrying constantly that my time is very limited. By the time the 6 months are up I will be 31. I hope they listen that’s all because I have been dismissed a few times. I’m sorry it’s taken so long for you, it’s absolute agony xx

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PurplePiggie

So sorry you're feeling this way, it's such a tough journey, be kind to yourself 😘 by way of positivity my friend got her BFP on her third cycle of Clomid, I know that probably feels distant right now but it can definitely happen, keeping everything crossed for you! Xx

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Catlady101 in reply to PurplePiggie

Thank you I really appreciate that xxx

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jengi

Hello lovely, it’s totally acceptable to have a low day. It is tough having a failure month after month and it gets to all of us at some point. I’m sure you are disappointed that your treatment didn’t work. It is natural to put your hopes into having a positive outcome. Just let yourself be in the emotions you feel, have a duvet day, binge watch something mind numbing & eat all the calories! Just be kind to yourself lovely. Our bodies can cope with a lot but our minds need some extra TLC so look after it! Once you have a new plan & timeline in place for the next treatment you will feel better hopefully. You can do this, the end result is so worth it. Big hugs Xx

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Catlady101 in reply to jengi

Thank you so much. Yes I definitely intend to put my PJ’s on ASAP and just have an evening of absolutely nothing. I hope tomorrow is a better day 🙏🏻 xx

I just wanted to say never appologise for a negative post. We have all had these days and feelings and it is best to get them. Please never give up although you will have that thought alot, i know i did. I now have a beautiful baby girl after a miscarriage, an ectopic pregnancy and a failed round of ivf (also nealry a break up due to the stress(. I ended up failing pregnant naturally when i least expected it and i was convinced it wouod never happen for me.

Just wanted to share my story and hope it helps you to keep on going and my heart goes out to everyone in this situation as it is the worst thing imaginable to go through x

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Catlady101 in reply to

I’m so happy you had a happy ending! Definitely gives me hope at a much needed time. Thank you for that xx

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