Bio chem confirmed, hcg down, 😭

Thankyou to each and every one of you who has written kind words of support for me in here. This forum is my safe place, my go-to for all the highs and lows of IVF. None of my friends and family have been through it so wouldnt begin to understand even though they try. We go through so much on this journey, the injections n tests n procedures the emotions. When I read the stories on here im in awe of how much strength you ladies have ! I’m heartbroken right now but I know I have to accept and move on .

This morning the results of my Second hcg confirmed my bio chem, bleeding is in full force and last night was the worst cramping which is still going on now and Im doubled over in pain. I knew when I started bleeding day 11 that things were going wrong , but that maternal instinct to protect my embie and cling on to hope kicked in when my OTD tests were positive.

Had another 3 days of limbo with a first hcg of 54 which was low but then i went on to read success stories and the hope kept building. The clinic reassured me and said it could still go either way.

Today seems like a weight has been lifted in that I have a definite answer, but the grief is horrible.

Sorry for the sad post but this is where Im currently at.

Onwards and upwards, will have to muddle through and pick myself up.

Your brave stories really inspire me to keep trying, have 3 frosties so will be preparing for FET soon as clinic gives the go ahead x

❤️

[LCharlton]

So so sorry that this has happened to you, but at least the suspense is over and you know where you are. Look after yourself like a piece of precious china and give yourself time to recover. A couple of sessions of telephone counselling with the counsellor at our clinic really helped me and my husband deal with our MC, I do recommend it xxxx

[Hidden]

Im so sorry love. I was hoping it would go the other way. You are right i think nobody understand the strange emotions of one weight being lifted for pure sorrow to take its place. Please take care of yourself and take painkillers if cramps are painful. 💐

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Sk. Oh I am so sorry to hear this after having a positive test result. Hope you've got plenty of support just now. I am sure once you feel stronger and able to try again, you will. Thinking of you. Diane

[Ivf2020A]

Im so sorry hun x the journey is torture and were always here, I find this to be my only safe space toox you are brave and the fight will come back within but if you need to be sad thats ok too feel what you need to feel- sending you 💓 at this difficult time x

[PenguinBlue]

Oh I’m so sorry to hear - that is so heartbreaking. Take the time you need to feel what you need to and definitely take care of yourself. That’s fab you have lots of Frosties waiting for you xxxx