Chemical 😭

[Maryc32]

Hi ladies, on Friday at 8dp5dt I got a strong positive on a first response. It faded slightly over the next few days and today is OTD and my test from the clinic is negative, although with a slight squint in certain lights.

There’s no point pursuing this now is there? If it’s faded from strong it’s a chemical?

I’ve been awake all night crying and all symptoms have pretty much gone.

I’ve emailed clinic to let them know.

[Cilla1812]

Hi . I'm so sorry. Unfortunately I think it is. I had one last month and it's very cruel. Hope u get another positive soon.

[JoN83]

So sorry to hear that. I’ve had a couple of these. Hope you’re holding up xxx

[CLDxxx]

Oh no Mary 😔so sorry to hear this.

Sending love and here if you need a chat 💕

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry. Having a chemical pregnancy is so cruel seeing that dream being ripped away is heartbreaking. We conceived our daughter just over a year after our chemical pregnancy so to say just because this pregnancy hasn’t worked out doesn’t mean another pregnancy wouldn’t- most women that miscarry will go into have a successful pregnancy. Right now it feels as though your world has fallen apart but in time this will get easier ( you never forget I know I haven’t forgotten the one I lost 3 years ago but you just learn to live with it) Take as much time as you need to grieve. I hope you have plenty of support xxx

[Maryc32]

Thanks for all the kind words. I’m waiting for the clinic to call me back, I think because of the slight line they’ll want me to take the drugs for two more days and retest to confirm negative as I’m sure something was said about that during a previous conversation

It seems hard to string it out though, I’ve been crying for a while and I want to say goodbye and focus on the next one. X

[Cinderella5 in reply to Maryc32]

Its is hard but continue on, its even worse if you have regrets of not continung the meds and wondering "what if". Sending hugs, its awful....Ive been there too.xx

[Hidden]

Im so sorry Mary. Its so cruel to see that line and it to be taken from you. Its just isnt fair. I hope all this heartache one day will be in the fast as you hold your baby. Sending love xx

[Chloettc2020]

Hi Mary, so sorry you’re having to through this. I had a chemical in March after my first round & I tested out untill I got a stark white negative. It’s so hard when you’re still getting faint positives. Here if you need to talk xx

[Hidden]

So sorry lovely xoxoxo

[Maryc32]

Thanks ladies ❤️ all symptoms gone now so can take a final test and stop drugs tomorrow

Clinic have said I can’t start a new cycle in 5 weeks ish (just have a period in between). I just need to try and get my positivity back.

This just goes to show how hit and miss the whole process is. I’m in Oxford and you only get one transfer on the NHS. I mean I’m lucky I have savings but how shit is it for people who don’t??? One free transfer just isn’t sufficient really to help people x