I write this with a heavy heart and apologise to put a damper.
I had my second scan on Tuesday with the NHS. Unfortunately I was told that there was no heartbeat and my angel was measuring at 7 weeks. I was suppose to be 9 weeks pregnant today. I had two 5 day blastocyst transferred on 28 January 2020.
As I had another scan booked with my clinic on Wednesday. My husband said to go ahead with the scan and hopefully they would be able to see a heartbeat. I was told that it was a missed miscarriage and to arrange medical treatment for the miscarriage.
I have to go to my local hospital tomorrow morning for medical management. To say I'm heartbroken is an understatement. I've been going through everything to see where I went wrong or what I could have done different. Was it the cups of tea I drank or the fizzy pop? Even though I made sure I didnt go over the recommended caffeine. Was it my egg quality but I had 2 good grade embryos which were transferred.
I know I shouldn't be ungrateful. Because even spending these 7 weeks knowing I had my angel growing inside me was a blessing. But I do think if it was a Bfn maybe the pain would have been less. I wouldn't have dreamed about holding my baby.
My clinic has made an appointment for me to discuss my miscarriage and the next step in 6 weeks time.
We dont have any more frozen embryos so we would be going through the IVF cycle again. If we want a baby. But atm I'm just feeling so lost and heartbroken to think about the next step.
I know many women have been through miscarriages. What helped you to ease the pain?
I'm grateful for all your help xx