OTD today and we had BFN. I am completely heartbroken and feel lost. I feel like I have lost a part of me again and just dont know where to turn or what to do.
I am in a teacher and start back to school next Monday but the way I am feeling right now I just dont know if I can go back just yet, especially as I know a big bleed is coming. The thought of having to face collegues, children and parents right now is making me feel sick and even more upset. I know it is still very early as we have only tested today. We had a miscarriage in September, where I went straight back to work and I just don't want to put myself back in the position of having to fight to keep myself together to get through each day.
This is our 6th Christmas TTC and failing. I am now feel like it is never going to happen for us and that maybe we should accept we will never be parents. watching everyone else announce pregnancies, go on maternity leave and enjoying Christmas with their families has been so hard this year, as it is for anyone going theough this journey.
Sorry for the moan.