Looking for some advice. My partner has serious fertility issues: retrograde ejaculation, low volume and high DNA fragmentation.
Basically, he can’t get me pregnant naturally and every IVF cycle has failed.
I can’t help but feel resentful. I am the one going through the pain, the hormones, the operations, the crushing heartbreak, booking all the appointments.
He is trying by taking supplements and eating well, but let’s be honest, it is mostly the woman that drives this journey and process.
We have talked about it, but it always ends up the same, with me driving everything.
I often feel resentful he can’t give me the one thing I want most in the world: a child.
I sometimes wish I hadn’t picked him, that I wish could be with someone fertile so I wouldn’t have to go through all this pain.
We have grown a lot during this journey, sometimes closer, but also, sometimes apart. I want to fight for the relationship, but IVF makes it so hard. I love him, but at what cost? Never having my own family?
Does anyone else have these feelings? How do you deal with it?