Infertility has rendered me useless

[Mary80]

Six years of TTC, two failed IVF, 39 years, do i even have tears anymore, it's all dried up. Tired of friends and family getting pregnant and shoving it in my face. Frustration and depression now my closest companion. Vagina very dry during love making because I'm sick of sex. Why will some women conceive while others will have to go extra miles.... is there still God in heaven. God pls answer our prayers and take away the burden of childlessness, give us happiness..... I'm tired.

[SaraMusk]

I know how you Feel Hun, Here’s me 9 Years TTC, 2 Failed IVF and 1 IVF that Ended with 39 Weeks Stillbirth 😔 Im just saying the Same thing to My Husband before Reading Post “Why is God being Unfair with Some” I wish I had Answers but nothing Works and I swear Im going Crazy Sometimes I wish I wasn’t Living 😪 and Yeah All I see is BFPs around Me Im So Happy for them but Why am I Still Waiting Grrrrrr!!! Hugs You Hun I Hope we get Our Miracle very Soon 😘 Im So Desperate for my Bundle that all I search is For Supplements, I’ve been told My Eggs are Poor Quality what more to Hear at Age 30 if Im not getting Pregnant now I think to Myself when I Age It Maybe even More Difficult 😔

[Mary80 in reply to SaraMusk]

Sorry for late reply. Thanks a lot. My dear you are still 30 very very young. Let's swap age pls. Take my age 39 and I will take yours 30. 😔 Yess our miracle babies are on d way. All d best.

[SaraMusk in reply to Mary80]

Hun Trust Me Im not Happy at all about My Age if Im told My Egg Quality is Poor but I still Pray, Pray and Pray Hoping something or the other will Work as I have been Pregnant before So Really don’t give a F*** what Gynaecologists say, they don’t even think how much it Hurts to Hear Something like this 😔 Im Just More Hurt because At the Moment I can’t Afford an IVF Cycle, Ive already had 3 NHS Funding Cycles so I have to Pay now but I know God will give me a way xx

[Mary80 in reply to SaraMusk]

They don't know how it hurts...it's true.

D gynaecologist always said to me - pls do whatever you have to do fast because of your age. In my mind I will say God pls hold my hands to avoid punching this woman's mouth. I am here suffering and you are reminding me of my age. You are 39, you are 39 jeeeeeez. I strongly believe it will end in praise.

You have one BIG advantage, that is your age. Don't lose hope, we all all get there. God is in control. Hugs.

[SaraMusk in reply to Mary80]

Yeah Hun a Male Gynaecologist said to me the same “You Don’t have much Time because you have Poor Eggs” What the F.....!!! I felt like Killing him, cause they can Bulls*** all they want as Age don’t matter, I’ve heard many Stories of Women getting Pregnant in their 40’s and also 50’s Because its all up to God and Don’t Worry Hun God has Something for us too, just waiting for the Perfect Time and I Pray our Time is real soon xx

[Janop79]

I’m so sorry! I know how difficult it is. I often ask myself the same question. Why is it so easy for others while seeming impossible for others? Seems so unfair. The only thing getting me through is hope. It’s not always easy but it’s the only thing we have. Have you thought about what the next step is?

[Mary80 in reply to Janop79]

So sorry for d late reply. Thanks a lot. My next step honestly is to keep on trying thru d natural way and most importantly prayers. Dis ivf has a way of depositing massive stubborn fat in my stomach. Hope you are good. Tk care

[Hidden]

Oh Mary, so sad to read your post, I am sorry you are feeling this way, it is totally understandable, we've all felt like this at times. But Janop is right, there only thing we have is hope. I did have to get some therapy to help with this myself. It is hard to do this on our own when we are right in the mess of it.

Also you are not useless, your self worth is not determined by your ability to produce a child, fight that thought pattern as infertility messes with our sense of identity - if you have a faith hold on to the knowledge that you are wonderfully and lovingly made. Living with unanswered prayers is a massive trial in life. If you want to chat about faith and infertility anytime do DM I have some really helpful links and resources that might help you...and happy to chat.

Take care

[Mary80 in reply to Hidden]

So sorry for the late reply. Thanks a lot for your message. Yesss I'm wonderfully and lovingly made 😂 plsss I will DM you soon when I relocate to my new base. I got a new job so moving out to a different town. The link and resources will definitely help. Thank you so much. Tk care

[Hope76]

As you know most women on here can relate to how you are feeling. Way I deal with it is when I hear of yet another pregnancy announcement is I think thank goodness they don’t need to go through what I do. I am open with friends and family and generally they are very thoughtful and considerate when it comes to my feelings. If you are. It getting this perhaps have a quiet word with them as I honestly think some people just don’t know how to handle it.

Don’t give up on your dreams, 🤞🏼 for 3rd time lucky 🍀

[Mary80 in reply to Hope76]

Sorry for the late reply. Thanks for your message. Yes I'm trying so hard to deal with it as everyone is getting pregnant even without trying. I know I'm not suppose to feel bad about it but...... I will work on my emotions by God's grace. 3td time ivf.... Oh my goodness not sure about it for now. 🤗 Hugs