I want this to be over!

[Ajplus1]

So I had my 5th retest it beta to see what’s going and hcg increased again. The clinic called and sent me for a scan to check to see if it was ectopic.

What did the scan show? It was inconclusive as beta is so low and the pregnancy is in an unknown location.

I spoke to my FS is the afternoon after the scan and she’s hoping that my body gets rid of it naturally and that I start to bleed soon. I asked what happens if i don’t and it doesn’t start decreasing, as they told me I’d bleed two weeks ago when I had the 2nd beta. She said worst case scenario is they will give me an injection of methotrexate. Which she told me not to google and said she will try to avoid at all costs if possible as we won’t be able to try again for 3-6months dependent on the dosage.

It’s obvious that this is pregnancy isn’t viable and is going to end, so why can’t my body just do what it needs to do so we can grieve and move on? It’s already been 2.5 weeks and my FS said it could still be a few weeks. I just want this over with! I have a retest on Tuesday (PH Monday) and I’m hoping that the number has decreased and not increased again so I know that closure is coming. I can’t do this for a few more weeks!!!

Sorry for the long post!!! Just needed to let it out!

[bextoliver]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I had a similar experience in December when I had an ectopic. I was given the methotrexate shot after about two weeks. I know at this point you just want it to be over and waiting is so hard. I hope they can figure it out soon and that you’re being closely monitored. As frustrating as it is to wait, it would be great if you can avoid the shot so I think it’s good your clinic is being so patient. I’m here if you want to talk more about it. Wishing you all the best xx

[Ajplus1 in reply to bextoliver]

Thank you love. I appreciate it. I’m hoping that the levels on Tuesday show a drop and not another increase. Xx

[Hidden]

My body doesn’t give it up easy either I usually get to 12w before signs of miscarrying so 6-7 weeks it take me hopefully it won’t take too long naturally x

[Ajplus1 in reply to Hidden]

Fingers crossed xx

[Alpatchino]

Oh Ajplus.... I truly hope this is soon over for you. I understand that all you want is to move on. I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope it is not an ectopic and that it resolves as soon as possible now...

[Ajplus1 in reply to Alpatchino]

Thank you hun. Me too. I’ve never wanted to start bleeding so much! X

[Cinderella5]

Gosh I'm so sorry that you're going through this! I think unfortunately the preference would be for things to happen before they would do methotrexate. The wait afterward would postpone things for you to try again as they said. Massive hugs, such a hellish time for you both!!xxx

[Ajplus1 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you hun. Yeah my FS said that would be worse case scenario of this went on for a few more weeks. Hope you’re well xx

[Hidden]

Hi lovely, I am so sorry to read this and it brought tears to my eyes.

Pregnancy in unknown location is ectopic - I was diagnosed with this at my 7 week scan. My HGC levels were 2200 but they couldn’t find my baby.

After monitoring me for 3 days, they found our pregnancy in right tube.

I received the methotrexate injection but 11 days later my tube ruptured and was rushed to surgery.

I felt like you - ‘I can’t even miscarry right’ this was me beating myself up at the time.

You are stronger than you think!

Keep us updated. Sending love and hugs! Xxxx

[Ajplus1 in reply to Hidden]

I’m so sorry to read that you went through this hun. Big hugs.

I had an internal and and external scan and FS said it didn’t look like there was any bulge or swelling in my tubes but they can’t rule it out. Xxx

[Frussy]

So sorry to hear that 🥺

I had on my second ectopic the same experience, I was late and all the happiness was about 2 weeks when started with the pain in the right side and on the scan, my doctor couldn't find the baby

Had methotrexate injection (3 shots ) but unfortunately, my tube ruptured

Hope will miscarriage and everything will be fine ❤️xxx

[Ajplus1 in reply to Frussy]

I’m sorry to hear that you had such a rough time hun. Thank you XX

[HM_3]

Please update us about your progress and bhcgs as I've seen a lot of women going through the same thing including me with bhcgs all over the place. I'll be thinking of you and sending you hugs xx

[Ajplus1 in reply to HM_3]

Thank you, will so I have another blood test tomorrow xx