So this is week 2 being back at work. Until yesterday Iāve been positive and a bit like my old bouncy self. But when thereās highs thereās a low!
Today is one of them lows. I just woke up feeling so disorganised with everything. Work, personal, finances the lot. The fact the clinic are messing us about doesnāt help!
Iāve mentioned before I sit away from the staffroom at lunchtimes- my safe place when feeling up and down. Obviously rainy days = wet, indoor playtimes. So Iāve had to go into the staffroom. Yesterdayās topic of conversation was the Royal Baby and today was a colleagues baby which was born today. It was like baby bloody mad! Donāt know where put my face sometimes and thatās when I hate that so many people know my situation as they straight away look at me or I feel they do.
I had a picture shoved under my nose this morning of the new born and then the lady that collects money for people said āIām doing a collection.ā I said āWho for?ā She said āDonāt get upset, the new baby of (our colleague)ā I almost said āWell now Iām upset!ā Why say that??
My husband rang the clinic today to ask about these bloods that canāt be done at the GP and they are now saying that we need to go back to the GP for another assessment? So that we can get funding?
Well hang on, when we went last time we asked the clinic if all the forms for funding would add another 8 months of our lives to the waiting and she said āNope, it wonāt take any time at all.ā
To top it off Iām 5lbs heavier today and I think itās because Iām starting to become so unmotivated. Nothing to look forward to due to not knowing when we will start so the only thing I look forward to these days is my food! Sounds really sad I know!
Letās hope I have a better day tomorrow.
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