First post...

[S_asha]

Hi everyone- have done lots of reading but no posting but really wanting to connect with people who know how I feel! Still in testing stages but blood tests not coming back positive so going for follicle scanning day 11 onwards this cycle. Obviously feeling bad at the moment as cycle day 1 was yesterday so feeling pretty low and just so sick of it 'never being me'. Any words of advice or I suppose just kind words even? I know follicle scans won't be as bad as an HSG 🤦🏼‍♀️and not really worried about the process just the results I suppose...

[Core]

Just wanted to say hello and good luck with your testing xx

[S_asha in reply to Core]

Thank you! Good luck to you too for wherever you're up to. Thank you for your reply x

[Core in reply to S_asha]

Thank you, I’m just waiting for period and then going to start medication for 3rd FET, fingers crossed we’ll be third time lucky xx

[S_asha in reply to Core]

Oh wow I really hope so! Thanks for taking the time to reply. I was having a really down day I've got to admit. Sending you lots and lots of luck x

[LunaLovegood11]

I’ve only recently posted here too... Still in testing stages myself. Some amazing people who have been so supportive. I think just posting your thoughts can be therapeutic and stops me dumping it all on my partner all the time. There are so many going through the same things but it’s never spoken about as much as other health issues and can feel very isolating, especially with the questions from people about when we’re having a baby. Best of luck to you xxxx

[S_asha in reply to LunaLovegood11]

You are absolutely right- people don't seem to talk about it at all and it does feel so isolating with so many reminders every day of what we're missing out on! Best of luck to you too xx

[S_asha in reply to LunaLovegood11]

Hard not to feel jealous though isn't it?! I get really angry then upset about other people's pregnancies. I know that's not nice and never infront of them but I can't seem to help it at the moment!!! Anyway- thank you for your comment and taking the time to say something I really appreciate it x

[LunaLovegood11]

I think jealousy is a perfectly natural emotion, then I have lots of guilt about being jealous of friends when I should be happy for them 😞 we grow up thinking things will be so easy and they rarely are. I told my partner I might look into some emotional support with it all but found looking here really helps at this stage. I guess try not to suppress emotions as they’re perfectly normal xxx

[S_asha in reply to LunaLovegood11]

Absolutely!! At the moment I don't seem capable of suppressing anything so not really an option for me 🤦🏼‍♀️the other month at work a birth was announced in our morning meeting- I managed to get to the end of the meeting then walked out and hid in a cupboard for 20 minutes to cry. I felt like a real idiot afterwards but couldn't help it and then it did mean I could get on with the rest of my day at least! We were offered fertility counselling at our last appointment but haven't taken it up yet but it has been crossing my mind more recently. Might see how my scans go week after next as that's going to really let us know what options are x

[Drives]

Just wanted to say hi 👋 and wish you all the best with your upcoming tests and journey x x x

[S_asha in reply to Drives]

Thank you. And best of luck to you too with everything. Thank you for replying xx

[Drives]

Aww no worries and thank you 😘 x x

[Hopeful_wishes]

Welcome! I’ve also recently joined and the forum has already been such a comfort. Wishing you lots of luck in your journey xx

[S_asha in reply to Hopeful_wishes]

Thank you- you too. Are you still going through the initial testing too? Xx

[Hopeful_wishes in reply to S_asha]

We are, we’ve done the tests for referral which all seemed to be ok - we have our initial consultation booked for end of May xx

[S_asha in reply to Hopeful_wishes]

Ahhh good luck with that. I was really nervous for that appointment but it was ok as just didn't know what to expect. They were really really nice and I felt a little bit that once it was done I was 'really on the way' to at least making some progress things have moved really quite quickly since then so far xx

[Hopeful_wishes in reply to S_asha]

That’s reassuring to know, I go between feeling scared and positive on a daily basis about the whole thing... trying to focus on each day as it comes now. Hope your tests go well today xx

[Hidden]

Wishing you all the luck in the world xxx hang in there

[S_asha in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Just getting ready to go for some more bloods as last ones weren't good so they want to retest. Nice way to start my week but trying to look on positive... at least I got a 10 minute extra lie in compared to my normal time I have to set off to work 🤦🏼‍♀️! Good luck to you too. Thank you for replying this group is amazing already x