*sensitive post* 2nd beta Hcg results

[Niki_B]

Hello lovelies 💕

Just a quick update..as many of you know I got my BFP last week after 2 rounds of ICSI and 3 embryo transfers...still cannot believe I'm pregnant 🙏 Also I haven't been on the site much as I am having extreme anxiety right now and not sleeping much. Just constantly thinking something is going to go wrong and this is just not going to happen and it's not for real. While I AM SO GRATEFUL to be here right now nothing prepared me for this terrifying anxiety I'm feeling. So if any of you ladies have any advice on how to somehow manage this anxiety in early pregnancy, please reply or private message me, I would appreciate it so much! ❤

Anyways good news today 😁

1st Beta 10dp6dt - 260

2nd beta 14dp6dt - 1550

Dont know why my clinic doesnt do it every 48 hours...but it has more than doubled so I'm really happy with that! viability scan booked in for 5th of April when I'll be 7+1 🙏🤞💕

So ladies I might take a wee step back for awhile just need to somehow try and sort this anxiety out 😣 I will pop in and out tho and see how everyone is just might be a bit quiet. i thank you all so much for your support you ladies are amazing! 💕 I'm so happy for all the recent good news, and so very sad for all the bad news 😥 keep strong ladies, you are all bloody amazing warriors!! 💪🤗💖💕 xxx

[NCS88]

Hi there - I cannot relate from the pregnancy side of things but I certainly can with anxiety. I find being in nature and doing things productive that I can finish (like a craft project, decorating, putting photo frames together etc) really helps my mind focus on that one thing whilst I’m doing it and not on worry. I hope you can find your ways of calming the anxiety, it’s completely understandable. And it will pass just remember that. Loads of love xxx

[Niki_B in reply to NCS88]

Thanks hun yes I think your right distraction is key. I'm not into crafty type stuff but surely I can find something to help distract me. Thank you ❤ xxx

[Tugsgirl]

I know these feelings all too well. I took a step back from here too and just dipped in now and again but then I’d see bad news and worry that it would be me next. After my viability scan the only thing that’s gotten me through is having scans every two weeks, private ones as well as the ones we got from the miscarriage clinic in the beginning. Even then two weeks in between scans is hard, time stands still. After my 20 week nhs scan on March 28th my consultant will scan me every 4 weeks, I’m already wondering how I’m going to cope waiting 4 weeks between scans! I’m 19 weeks this week though and feeling some movement so that gives me some reassurance.

All you can do at this stage is take it a day at a time. Every day you make it through is a day closer to meeting your baby.

Hope you come back and update us on your viability scan xx

[Niki_B in reply to Tugsgirl]

Yes I remember you taking a break fro, the site too. And I've never even suffered any loss but I am still terrified and your right when I read bad news I think it's me next for sure. Oh I wonder how much private scans cost and if they even do them here in little ole nz, surely they do. Yeah I've already gotta wait 2.5 weeks for my visibility scan and that feels like am eternity away! But yes that's what I'm trying to do, 1 day at a time thats all I can do 😣 thanks hun ❤ xxx

[Tomorrow_1]

First of all, congratulations again! Those are excellent results. Second, I understand the anxiety completely. Spend some time away from this site, if it helps- no one will blame you. And go for walks- get out in the fresh air, move at a relaxed pace and just keep focusing on breathing calmly. I found that talking to friends helped a lot as well. Just make sure they’re friends who understand what you’re going through and can offer sympathy. You can do this! Stay strong 💪!

[Niki_B in reply to Tomorrow_1]

Thanks hun, yes I go to the beach with my dog 3 times a week and yes I do feel less stressed those days. So relaxing walking down the beach watching the waves. And yes luckily I have 1 good friend I can talk to and of course you ladies on here 🙏. Thank you...jus got to make it to my scan then maybe I will relax a little. Funny everytime I get good news from my clinic I have a good night sleep slept 9 hours last night, first time in days! Thanks hun ❤ xxx

[MissSaoPaulo]

Looking good hon. Do whatever you need to do to help ease your anxiety. It is nervewracking while you don't know what's going on in there. Be prepared for symptoms to come and go, it doesn't mean there's anything wrong. Fingers crossed all is looking good at the scan and hope time doesn't drag too much until then xxx

[Niki_B in reply to MissSaoPaulo]

Thanks hun. Yeah I'm just trying to get through each day. Spending time at the beach every other day with my dog helps, something about being in the fresh air by the ocean. Just gotta tick the days off. Yes I'm dreading if I will see any spotting...I will freak right out! I've had NONE. 0. I did have implantation cramps and the odd little flutter or twitch but no spotting. Did you have any spotting? I heard around 5 to 6 weeks there may be spotting or even blood as the placenta digs in deeper, that will freak me right out 😣.

Thank you yes just got to get too my scan and hope everything is as should be 🙏🙏🙏❤ xxx

[MissSaoPaulo in reply to Niki_B]

Aw bless, you'll be fine. I'm sure the fresh air is doing you loads of good and helping you keep calm. I haven't had any spotting at all, but I've seen loads of people on here and on NCT who have and it was fine, it seems to be really common. Anyway, welcome to the club xxx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Niki. Fabulous news! Hope all goes well with your scan in April. Numbers are excellent! Diane

[Niki_B in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks diane! Oh gosh I sure hope so! If all is well MAYBE I will calm down a bit?! 😉🙃🙏❤ xxx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to Niki_B]

Oh I doubt you will! I shall be thinking about you. Diane

[Niki_B in reply to DianeArnold]

Oh dont say that! 😉 thanks diane xxx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to Niki_B]

Ha ha! Bless you all! I think you all worry too much. Take care.

[littlemisstired80]

Congratulations!!! Great numbers! I too had anxiety all the way through my pregnancy as it was such a miracle. I even dreaded the scans. He's 17 months now and I still am a little overprotective, ok a lot lol but I think it's because I never thought I'd be a Mum. Message me anytime Hun. I understand the anxiety in pregnancy so much and even if just chatting helps you I'm here xx

[Niki_B in reply to littlemisstired80]

Thanks hun. Yes that is what is keeping me afloat j think the fact I have good numbers 🙏. Oh and your boy is just gorgeous I can see his wee face on your profile what a sweetie! 😍 yes I guess us IVF women will never enjoy a pregnancy like a "normal" woman would. Arrrgh its not fair aye we should be the ones relaxed after everything we've been through. Thanks so much hun I may just message ya 😘❤ xxx

[Novice_knitter]

I put a post on the NCT forum about coping with anxiety in early pregnancy (I’m 9 weeks now) and lots of lovely ladies came back with advice. Just wanted to let you know in case you wanted to read them. It’s so hard, enjoy it as much as you and go easy on yourself - it’s ok to feel like this - and understandable given your journey. Good luck hun xxx

[Niki_B in reply to Novice_knitter]

Oh thanks hun I'm going to have a read. And congrats to you you are almost past the scary part yay!! Have you fou d your anxiety eased a little after your viability scan? I hope mine will, as the leaflet I got my from clinic says if a good heartbeat and measurements are correct there is a 95% chance if you having a live birth! Those are blood good odds if you ask me! Just 2.5 weeks till my scan 🙏😣❤ xxx

[Novice_knitter in reply to Niki_B]

😂😂 I felt massively relieved after my scan, it lasted 2 weeks, then yesterday had mega- anxiety and had to put a post up for help 🙈 one of the suggestions was to look at the stats (id been too scared to look!) and once I saw these - I actually felt lots better.

I think the scan combined with the stats have helped - but I think I might just have to accept that this feeling might come back here & there after such a long wait to reach this point.

I’m trying to reassure myself that my symptoms aren’t in my head and believe that I’m actually pregnant lol

Good luck on your wait till scan - it’s so hard. Try to spend time noticing how your body changes and listen to what your body needs - I was so sleepy - I think I slept through most of the wait for my viability scan. Xx

[Olivia1980xxx]

Congratulations hun. I completely understand your worries I being there to . I rememberer when I was 10 weeks we went for private scan if everything is ok us I didn’t had any symptoms. I never being sick or feel “like I’m pregnant “ ☺️ Just relax hun and enjoy your pregnancy xx

[Niki_B in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

Thanks hun. Yes I'm hoping once I have my viability scan I will hopefully calm down alot as clinic said if a good heartbeat ais detected and measurements are good I have a 95% chance of a live birth! Those are amazing odds! 🙏❤ xxx

[Olivia1980xxx in reply to Niki_B]

I cry when I had my first scan 7 weeks hubby to ...when we was living the clinic we both said...” we done it” ☺️ Not long till your scan hun hold on and trust me u gonna be ok and your baby or baby’s will be ok . Keep us updated XX