My heart on a plate

[Grace5777]

So I had a frozen transfer and it went well.... we sat patiently though the 2ww and got a BFP. We were so happy that we were pregnant. I had both tubes removed 6 years ago after an ectopic and so unfortunate internal bleeding!

We called the clinic and were booked in for our 7 + 2 scan!!! OMG I’m so excited.

We yet again patiently waited, and while doing so had all the right symptoms! I was peeing like a race yourself, sore boobs, weird dreams and of course the clothes were getting tighter!!

Well today was the day for the scan, unfortunately my husband couldn’t make it so thank god my mum could! We were called in and the scan began. I knew something was wrong as the nurse went quite and called in the senior midwife!

With a heavy heart she told us that there wasn’t a pole or heartbeat and our pregnancy was no longer viable!!

I feel empty, and strangely angry.

I wish you all the best of luck from the bottom of my heart but please remain optimistic. I don’t want anyone to ever feel like I have today!

I wouldn’t wish this headache on my worst enemy.

[Hollibob]

Sorry you’ve had to go through this, it’s heartbreaking x

[Cinderella5]

Im so very sorry that you are going through this! Hugs.xx

[Emmaxxx]

I am so sorry to hear this. I am thinking of you. It is just so unfair. I hope that one day we all get to the end of this heart ache and come out into with a bundle of joy xx

[Hidden]

Thinking of you, what a tough situation. Lots of love x

[Tugsgirl]

Getting to a scan and being told bad news is one of the worst feelings ever. I’m sorry you’re experiencing more sadness xx

[Debrakay1704]

Am so sorry to hear this. Cannot imagine what you are going through. ❤️❤️. Xxx

[silverlini]

So sorry 😔 I’ve experienced my second chemical / miscarriage today. It’s so awful. Sending all my love xx

[Hidden]

I’m sorry 😢 xx I haven’t had ivf but 3 mc every time I go for a scan my heart sinks. Thinking of you xx

[Lou7744]

I’m so sorry to read this. It’s devastating. Sending you big hugs 💕 xx

[Kempton]

So sorry to read that Grace. It's just the biggest fear after you get a positive. Hope you have a lot of support around. All the best to you and your partner.

[kirstyblue]

Oh how very cruel that you have had to go through this. I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself x

[Dreamingofbaby]

So sorry Hun is so sad and I fair. Take good care xx

[Pickles85]

I’m so unbelievably sorry. This is my worst nightmare in the run up to my first scan. Utterly heartbreaking. Sending love and virtual hugs 💓

[Drives]

Absolutely heartbreaking. Sending you lots of love x x

[Grace5777]

Thank you for all your wonderful comments..... I spent the day on my own as my husband is currently away! I emptied a bottle of red and kept busy...

We still have 2 frozen eggs which is amazing and once everything has “passed though” we will go again.

This journey isn’t over yet!!!

[SunnyDream]

Hello Grace5777! You are a heroine for me! Really! I can imagine what kind of pain you feel! I am amazed by your resilience. You are not discouraged and completely convinced that this is not the end. I believe in you and in the fact that very soon, you and your husband will hold your baby in your arms and enjoy every moment of his/her life!

I'm on my journey to a long-awaited pregnancy too, trying not to lose my hope in a happy future! All my prayers are for you!

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry for your loss, so devastating after a struggle to get pregnant.

I had a chemical pregnancy in 2017 so have an idea of how you feel. We took it as a positive it showed us we could get pregnant & after 6 years of not managing to it was progress!!! I can give you a happy story we are now 28 weeks pregnant with a little girl.

Please remember just because this pregnancy didn’t work doesn’t mean that next pregnancy wouldn’t. Lots of women who suffer a miscarriage will go on to have a healthy baby 👶🏻

Hope you have plenty of support around you & all the best take care ❤️xoxo

[Elynn]

So sorry....huge hugs. 🌻

[Scarlett13]

That is truly heartbreaking - to get that far then have it taken - I’m so sorry - what’s happened is so unfair and you have the right to feel angry x

[aamiller405]

I'm so sorry to hear this sad news.. Take care of yourself xo

[Hidden]

Hi lovely. I had the same thing in January - I am so sorry for your loss xx

[Flutterbby]

Hi Grace, I know this post is a year on now but I’m scared to go in soon for the same reason, I don’t think I have a fetal heartbeat anymore. It’s tough isn’t it especially after so much intervention and the high of actually getting pregnant then being dropped off the face of the Earth hey.

Just wondering how you got thru it? And did you carry on with any further attempts 🙂

[Grace5777 in reply to Flutterbby]

Hello lovely!! It’s bloody hard, after that day I drank 2 bottles of wine and a pack of fags (don’t even smoke!) it was by far the hardest day of my life, I wanted to be alone and spent the night at home alone drinking!!

The good news is the next transfer I fell and I now have my beautiful little boy Joseph who is 14 weeks today!!

Please let me know how you get on! Is this your first?! Xx

[Tryagain45 in reply to Grace5777]

Amazing news!!!!! ❤️❤️

[Cinderella5 in reply to Grace5777]

Congratulations!xx

[Tryagain45]

Huge hugs...I'm so sorry for your heartache xx❤️❤️❤️

[Grace5777 in reply to Tryagain45]

Thank you!!