I’m ok. I think. At least that’s what I tell people. Except I’m really quite anxious so far as to whether everything is ok in there. My “sickness” seems to be intermittent. Is that normal? To have morning sickness/nausea that is there one day and not the next?
I’ve not had so much af type cramping this time as with my other pregnancies. Mild cramps and twinges here and there every day but nothing as scary as the times when I was asking others if it was normal to feel like you’re going to get af all the time. I felt like I was going to get af in the tww and a few days after my bfp but like I said, it’s the odd cramp and twinge these days.... I’ve had no spotting or bleeding of any kind (touch wood) so far 🤞🏻
My boobs are pretty consistent in how they are feeling; they’re heavy, full, I’m super aware of them all the time, and when I take off my bra every night there’s a period of readjustment where they physically hurt for a few minutes before settling down again. Sometimes they give me discomfort turning over in the night.
I’m tired. More than usual. I’m napping in the afternoon but if I don’t then I really struggle to stay awake past 9pm.
Anyway I took another clearblue weeks indicator this morning. I read all sorts of scares (bloody google!!) about the weeks indicator thing and still thought if “I don’t get my 3+ weeks I’m going to have a freaking meltdown!” Thankfully I got my 3+ weeks which is good because that’s equivalent to 5+ weeks in pregnancy (and the highest the weeks go) and I’m supposed to be 5+4 ish (ivf calculator). But trying not to get too hung up on testing. So on the one hand I can’t wait for my viability scan on the 3rd of January (still about two weeks to go..............) and on the other hand I’m absolutely dreading it!! 😔 Any advice or reassurance greatly received atm. Being pregnant after ivf and three previous miscarriages is hard. Not in a “I’m ungrateful hard” because I’m EXTREMELY grateful. But being in this pregnant lady’s head right now isn’t easy.🥴 I don’t even know if I should use the word “pregnant” and I’m thinking I should just stick to saying “pupo” I didn’t want to write this post because I didn’t want to be having these thoughts and feelings. I wanted to just be able to enjoy it.