Hi everyone,
Feeling a bit crappy today. So I’ve been signed off work for two weeks as have been having horrendous abdominal pains in and out of hospital with no answers which is stressing me out. They found a small cyst on my right ovary which is apparently under developed so I have no idea what has happened there- I’m wondering if the first fresh cycle kick started the ovary into doing something rather than the usual nothing.
Because of this undiagnosed pain and the cyst I have decided to put off the transfer that was meant to happen in January. I wasn’t convinced anyway as the clinic had not got back to me about any treatment after telling them my period started in November there was no contact so what they were planning to do I don’t know anyway.
I just had a dream last night I met up with an old friend and told him everything that’s been going on and I realised that all of this is really getting on top of me. My Dad has colitis and I’m worried it’s something like Crohn’s as I have had symptoms for years. In the dream I sat on an unsteady chair and was suddenly at the edge of deep water about to fall in- says it all right?!
Anyway, my colleagues are coming to visit me at home today which I’m nervous about and I hate being off work I’ve only been there a year but on the other hand this has been one of the hardest years of my life so far. Emotionally and physically.
😔