And all the positive energy gone

[sarahharas]

I have not been crying or feeling down for 2 weeks now, but when I switched on my phone this morning I got the fantastic news that a freind of mine is pregnant. I am so happy for her, as she had similar problems, but I feel dreadful and the river of tears just started. I just had my trigger shot yesterday and should be positive and full on energy but I can't. How am I going to survive the next two weeks and more importantly the next dissappointment when AF arrives? I cannot live through another happy pregnancy of friends and send baby presents and still not be pregnant.

xxx

[Shirazlover2013]

Hi Sarah, it’s really tough the mix of happy and sad emotions. What about sending a congratulatory message then muting them on social media just for a fortnight whilst you focus on you. You’ve got a big few weeks coming up so try to save your energy for yourself. Good luck with collection xx

[sarahharas in reply to Shirazlover2013]

Thanks for your nice words I am not having IVF, I am having ovulation induction with natural cycles, although I would not consider this natural any more BUt also here I need all the strength as with every failed cycle (9 so far) the pain is getting worse.

[Shirazlover2013]

Oh I see, I just assumed when you wrote trigger shot! I’ve not heard of ovulation induction to be honest. 9 cycles of the same thing with the same outcome sounds a bit odd though, are things being learned from each failed cycle? Or is it time to consider a different kind of intervention?

The joy of creating a baby the natural way is long gone for all of us isn’t it!! Next person to joke about that to me will get a slap.

I’m sorry the failed cycles are causing you so much pain, hopefully you get your happy news soon. Till then big hugs xx

[Shirazlover2013]

Oh I see, I just assumed when you wrote trigger shot! I’ve not heard of ovulation induction to be honest. 9 cycles of the same thing with the same outcome sounds a bit odd though, are things being learned from each failed cycle? Or is it time to consider a different kind of intervention?

The joy of creating a baby the natural way is long gone for all of us isn’t it!! Next person to joke about that to me will get a slap.

I’m sorry the failed cycles are causing you so much pain, hopefully you get your happy news soon. Till then big hugs xx

[sarahharas]

Yeah, I am suffering from complete anovulation, so I get drugs to grow follicles and ovulate. In the beginning, I started with Clomid, and they try different doses, hence so many cycles, but my body soemhow does not really respond to it. Now I am using injectables (Gonal-f) the same as for IVF but just at much lower doses, so you want to have maximum 2 follicles growing, but then you get a trigger shot as well to release the eggs. During this time you need to have what they nicely call "timed intercourse", 36hrs of a fertile window. They let you out of the clinic, by saying: You know what you have to do". Truely anything but fun. The good thing is that my body perfectly responds to the drug at very low doses.

I totally feel the same that I want to slap people that give you great suggestions how you should do it and that making a baby is fun. I am quite happy that my 36hrs are almost over....

Thank you xxx

[AJJ123]

I know it’s crap. There’s always someone getting their bfp or announcing their pregnancy after their first scan when your feeling low. Or, sometimes when your feeling good ... bam out of nowhere you get it slapped in your face and you just go back to square one.

Well, it could very well be your announcement soon, think of that for motivation and good luck xx

[sarahharas in reply to AJJ123]

THank you I am feeling much better today!