Just no enthusiasm, please give me a virtual kick!!

[Jonesjp]

Title says it all really, I received my protocol in the post this morning and knew it was coming so that we can start our second round, but I just feel a bit numb to it all just can’t muster any enthusiasm for it. The last round was such a disaster, they took me through EC poked around and there were zero eggs. They have now added Clomid into the mix so hopefully that will help. I was so excited about our first round but that enthusiasm seems to have disappeared and I just don’t know how to get it back. I don’t want to delay the round as Christ it took us long enough to get here but I just don’t know how to shake myself out of this. Some virtual kicks up the bum from you amazing experienced ladies is probably what I need ☹️ x x x

[LegoBatgirl]

You can do this. You've got some experience on your side now and you're going to kick *ss at doing all the injections and know loads that you didn't know the first time around x

[Jonesjp in reply to LegoBatgirl]

Thanks hunny id not thought of it that way, first time around I was so concerned about the injections and EC and those aren’t bothering me in the slightest this time around, I need to start looking at the positives x x

[LegoBatgirl in reply to Jonesjp]

Honestly you'll be starting from such a strong place, it'll be a lot more comfortable this time around x

[Jonesjp in reply to LegoBatgirl]

You are so right 😘 x x

[MrsAdzee]

It sounds like you are going through the motions, completely natural. Hopefully the Clomid will prove helpful & all the best of luck xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to MrsAdzee]

Thanks Hun, yes I hope so they only seem to be giving me 5 days of it but hopefully that will do the trick x x x

[Hidden]

No two cycles are the same, especially as they've shaken up the protocol by adding Clomid to the mix. New protocol, new results. Be excited - this is a completely new opportunity and the past results belong exactly where they are: in the past. Crossing everything for you for this next cycle and sending you all the positivity in the world! Xx

[Jonesjp in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Hunny, your right I need to get out of that mindset and leave the last cycle in the past, onwards and upwards x x x

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Phillipsjp. One BIG kick coming from my way! Come on and get your act together. You know you've got to get cracking and we will all be behind you - forgive the pun! Thinking of you and wishing you all the best. Diane

[Jonesjp in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks Diane, I really did need a kick and I knew this would be the place to get it 😊 I’m starting to feel more positive about it now x x x

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK in reply to Jonesjp]

Atta girl! xx

[Cinderella5]

I think its only natural that after a bad round that your enthusiasm dwindles....my first one was a disaster too with nothing to transfer. However it is right that no two cycles are the same and hopefully now that they have sorted you a new protocol it could be a differetn story! Massive virtual kick up the backside sent....you just never know!!xx

[Jonesjp in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks Cinders, bizarrely I didn’t seem that upset after the first cycle went wrong, I think I tried to brush it under the carpet, I think it’s only really now hitting home knowing the second cycle is due! But I have to keep remembering no two cycles are the same! Hope your doing ok x x x

[genten]

You can do it!! This is your time. Don't let anything stop you from giving this your all. We're all here cheering you on. 👌💪xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to genten]

Thank you Hun you ladies are ace x x

[MofM]

Don't concentrate on the process, but on the final results: a baby. Your baby!

Thinking of you! xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to MofM]

Thanks Hun, I know this sounds silly but the process takes so long you almost forget why your doing it in the first place! I now that sounds odd but the whole thing becomes such an ongoing process it’s almost like autopilot, I definitely need to focus on why were doing this x x

[vic77]

you got this hun..look at some of the inspirational quotes folk been posting. ..lots of love and strength xx

[Jonesjp in reply to vic77]

Thanks Vic I was taking a look yesterday, such a good idea of yours, it’s amazing how if your feeling a bit down reading one of those quotes can be enough to stir up some determination x x x

[Abaco]

You are made of strong stuff and You can do this! Think of that end result xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to Abaco]

Thank you Hunny, I knew you ladies would sort me out x x

[everhopeful83]

Sending positive vibes your way ✨✨✨xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to everhopeful83]

Thank you Hunny, just what I needed x x x

[Hidden]

🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️that's the closest emoji I could find to a kicking one!

It's normal to feel like this. You know that lies ahead and you know how much energy you will need. So you have automatically gone into protection mode. Like going into hibernation 😂

You know when the time comes you will be there 100%, you will be the amazing strong warrior that you are.

You got this and you can do this xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to Hidden]

Lol I love you emoji, made me smile and that’s exactly what I needed thank you Hun 😊 your right I think the thought of it is more daunting than the actual process! The actual injections/Scans aren’t that worrying, I just needed a good kick from you ladies and it’s worked as I’m starting to look at it in a different way now x x

[Carolina84]

Can you tell me please how long did you have to wait for your second round? I had EC on Tuesday. Two eggs collected, one injected, no fertilisation Heartbroken. Waiting for my follow up appointment but don’t know how long I’ll have to wait...

[Jonesjp in reply to Carolina84]

Hi hunny, I know you just can’t get your head around it to begin with, I know we know it can happen you just don’t think you’ll be the one it happens too, I was so upset for the following week and then I think I just buried my head in the sand thinking its ok I’ll have another go and then when this protocol landed I think it brought up all the emotions I probably should have dealt with at the time it failed, this journey just messes with your head. I think I was trying to be strong and in hindsight I think I should of allowed myself to deal with it properly, clearly not quite as strong as I thought I was!! But to answer your question I had EC on the 4th Sept and I’ll be starting my next round on the 11th Dec, I believe they like you to have 3 AF’s before the next round, I have had my AF’s (well two so far) but there a bit all over the shop and not quite normal flow (sorry tmi) first cycle was 22 days, second one was 17 days which was a Bugger, but I should at least be happy that they have come back so quickly. I know it is heartbreaking and you feel like someone has just kicked you whilst your already down, but thanks to these lovely ladies on here I am now starting to look at this next round more positively and hopefully they will change your protocol next time around as well. Sending you much love and please take all the time you need to get your head around it all 😘 x x x

[Carolina84 in reply to Jonesjp]

Thank you! 😘

[wemma83]

We’re on our second round and I don’t feel the same as I did on our first either! I think it’s probably a self preservation thing? You don’t want to get too excited but you feel kind of guilty that you don’t! I’m sure it’s completely normal, if anything I’m telling myself it’s a good thing because all those nerves and anxieties aren’t using up your energy 😊 Wishing you lots of luck sweetheart 💕 xxx

[Jonesjp in reply to wemma83]

Thanks Hun, you are right It hadn’t dawned on me that a lot of this is guilt because you know you get this amazing opportunity (which if we didn’t live in this country then we may not!) and I should feel really grateful for and be all positive, but I just couldn’t muster up the enthusiasm, I am starting to feel more positive now ( I wouldn’t go so far as to say enthusiastic!) but your right it’s definitely self preservation. Wishing you lots of luck for this round x x x

[Dunla]

You can do this! My first ever cycle was a complete disaster. One egg and no embryo transfer 😕

Wishing you lots and lots of luck. Remember every one here will be rooting for you xx

[Jonesjp in reply to Dunla]

Thank you Hunny, it’s rubbish isn’t it and it seems to happen to more people than I thought, you just think that it won’t be you so then it’s such a bloody shock when it is!! I hope your doing ok, sending much love x x

[Mantaray75]

Don’t worry it’s complete normal. I had some cycles when I felt like this but once injections start and you start having scans it will at least seem that something is happening. My cycles were all quite different too. I had a cancelled first cycle cos no follicles and then second cycle had loads of follicles and 8 eggs collected.

You can do this.

X

[Jonesjp in reply to Mantaray75]

Thanks Hun, that’s good to know that your second cycle was so much better than your first, I was just thinking that it all felt a bit hopeless, but I’m definitely feeling a lot more positive about it now 😊x x x