As most of you are aware I had a miscarriage a few weeks ago, I want or should say I am need of help...im still feeling incredibly emotional and have real down days and frustrations of anger. what I didn't tell any of you at the time was my oh was abroad for most of the time (something he couldn't get away from, too long to explain) when I say most of the time I mean from the day I found out about the miscarriage until it was completed.
although he was there over the phone and was really supporting im starting to feel anger towards him, and feel like he doesn't care or understand how I feel. im really thinking of leaving him but I know this is my hurt speaking, he tries to take my mind off it all by throwing jokes and taking me out and he has been positive with it will happen for us etc but im on the opposite side thinking you don't know what I went through, I don't want to stay with you and I don't want to go out with you or listen to your jokes etc etc etc.
I love him dearly he was there throughout our ivf cycle and has never given me a reason to complain, but I cant get over this now. I need to know how to speak to him about this so if there are any males if you could give me advice or anyone any suggestions on how to feel better and positive.
I have my consultation in over a week or so, and although I have told my oh I feel like not including him and telling him its cancelled so he don't come with me but again that's my hurt and anger not what I really want or what my heart wants and I feel like im just pushing him away.
sorry for the long post and thank you for replies in advance, and if anyone was in the same boat now or once before please share xxxxxxxxxx